My Not Yet Mate

Chapter 47

Lukas

He opened his eyes and went to stretch, yawning. His hand slid across hair and he froze. What the fuck did he do last night? He rolled onto his side and he started grinning like a fool. Lily. He thought he had dreamed her coming to him last night. He let his fingers move down her face and she smiled in her sleep. He moved her hair off her neck and ran his fingers over the small scar that that asshole’s mark had left behind when it healed. Her beauty first thing in the morning was the best thing in life. He had missed her so much and he had needed last night so much.

‘I’m sure she is going to wake up hungry. We need to get her food, Gideon told him grumpily.

“Just wait a minute, he hissed back.

Lukas lay facing her, breathing in her scent. She moved closer to his body, seeking him for comfort. She muzzled into his chest and he wrapped both of his arms around her, holding her even closer. He kissed the top of her head. Her stomach growled and he had to bite back a groan.

“I told you! Our baby is growing. She is halfway through her pregnancy and she needs food. So, get up.”

Lukas rolled his eyes, but gently untangled himself from her. He glanced at the time. 7:30 AM. Breakfast would just be getting on the tables. He quickly went to the dining hall to grab her a plate. He didn’t want to give her any more time than necessary to be able to run from him. As he was filling a plate of food, there was a growl from behind him. He glanced over his shoulder and actually did groan. Jo, Kalani, Sasha and Sommer all stood there. He scooped some more eggs onto the plate and added more sausage and bacon,

“What?,” h

he asked nonchalantly.

“WHERE THE HELL 15 LILY?, Sommer yelled at him. “AND WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO HER?!”

He narrowed his eyes. “Lily is asleep. I did nothing to her, but hold her. I came down to get her food.”

Sommer took a step towards him with her fists balled. He raised an eyebrow at her.

“I would reconsider that. I don’t normally hit women, but if you do not get out of my way, I will have another choice but to remove you from it myself.”

“I’d like to see you fucking try,” she hissed.

jo eyed him. “You were really drunk last night. Are you sure

Gideon pushed forward. “AFTER EVERYTHING SHE S BEEN THROUGH, DO YOU THINK I WOULD FORCE MYSELF ONTO HER?!,” he roared.

Jo put her hand on Sommer’s shoulder and forced her back a step. “He didn’t hurt her, Sommer. Let it go and talk to her later.”

To steered her away while she silently threatened him with her eyes. He turned to his sisters.

“Anything else or may I go tend to my mate that I left in bed alone, after she’s been shutting me out. Or am I free to go?”

They parted slightly and he walked between them.

“You look happy, brother,” Sasha called out behind him.

Of course he was happy. He had gotten to finally see his mate. She had talked to him and she had sought him out, not to mention that he had got to hold her for a few hours. His anxiety rose as he neared his room. The door was slightly ajar. Had he left it open when he left? Would she still be there if he hadn’t? He pushed the door open slowly and looked around the room. He sighed when she was nowhere to be seen. He took the plate over to the table and set it down.

“We never should have left her in here alone, he snapped at Gideon.

“Go End her!

“I can’t. Sasha will have my ass and the other three will back her up. He slammed his hand down onto the table. ‘Do you think you could hide our presence in their wing?”

‘1 could try. Let’s go see he

“Lukas?”

His head shot up and his heart started pounding. “Lily?”

She looked away from him. “Where did you go?,”

,” she whispered.

“To get your food. Your stomach was talking.”

Her head dropped and he hated his careless words. He knew this was hard for her. Sasha had told him how hard she was trying to remain separate from their baby. He was too afraid to move. If he started going to her, would she run? He silently cursed.

“I went to the b

bathroom. I was going to leave…”

“I’m glad you didn’t. Why don’t you come eat, Lils? I know you’re hungry.”

She sat at the table and he gently pushed the plate over in front of her. She sighed as she picked up the fork. He watched her push the food around her plate for a few minutes, before she slammed the utensil down.

“Why do you care if I eat?”

He bit back a growl at her words and he had to stop himself from reaching for her.

*You’re my mate, Lily. I care about what happens to you.”

She pushed away from the table and stood up. She walked away and started pacing with her hands clasped behind her back. He leaned back in his chair and let Gideon push forward to share control. Suddenly, she stopped to glare at him.

“That’s exactly it, isn’t it? If I wasn’t your mate, you wouldn’t care what happened to me, would you?”

He eyed her, debating on how to answer. The truth would crush her for the time being, but lying to her would hurt them for longer. He tapped his fingers on the table.

“You are correct, Lily. If you weren’t my mate, I wouldn’t be here with you, nor would I be as invested in your wellbeing as I am,” he answered truthfully.

His jaw clenched as her heart broke before his eyes. He got to his feet and slowly walked towards her.

“I wouldn’t want you to be near me every day or wonder if you missed me. I wouldn’t want you to be in my arms or in my bed. I wouldn’t want to see your smile or hear you laugh, Lilianna. I wouldn’t care that your father abused you or let other people abuse you. I wouldn’t have showed up to your school or your field trip and claimed you in front of everyone, if you weren’t.

I wouldn’t have tried so hard to find you or tried to fire lo, if you weren’t.” He cupped her cheek and used his thumb to wipe her tears away. “But you are, Lily. When I used to beg the Goddess for my mate, I’d ask for a brunette, brown eyes, short woman. I prayed that she would be a freak in bed and have no issues getting naked wherever. I prayed that I would have a queen ready to rule by my side.”

She took a step back and looked down at the ground. He knew he was crushing her fragile soul, but she needed to know. He slowly backed her up to the wall and when she was against it, he put his hands on either side of her head. He leaned down to look into her eyes.

“The Goddess gave me none of that. I thought I was right. I thought I knew better, but there is a reason she is the Goddess and I am just her servant. She knew if I had a woman like that, I would have missed out on so much.”

She swallowed and closed her eyes. “Like what?”

His hand moved down her arm to take her hand. He lifted it to his mouth and kissed her knuckles.

*You, Lils. I would have missed out on you. I would have missed out on falling so deep in love that I can’t survive the day without counting the seconds until I can see you again. I would have missed out on so much endless joy and laughter without you. I wouldn’t have learned self control, patience or the importance of self growth without you being my mate. So, let me be frank with you, Lily, I don’t give a damn if you are my mate or not. I am in love with you, dragon or no dragon.

You are mine, mate bond be damned right now. You are who I want. You are the one I crave, You a

are my other half. The only way I walk away from you is if you tell me, “Lukas, I don’t want to be with you. Even then I would still try to convince you that you belong with me. Not to me, Lily. With me. You are not an object to be owned. You are a person that has her own thoughts, feelings and emotions.” He kissed her knuckles again. “And I see you. I’ve always seen you.”

She pushed on his chest and he backed away slowly, barely giving her enough room to slip around him. She walked over to stand at the foot of the bed. She met his eyes and began to bunch her dress up. He kept his eyes on hers and when he faltered, Gideon forced his eyes to stay on hers. She let the dress drop to the floor and turned sideways. Her hands went to her stomach, one slightly above her small bump and the other slightly below it.

“I’m pregnant, Lukas. I had sex with another man and I’m pregnant. You shouldn’t want me.”

He immediately moved to kneel at her feet and laid his head on her stomach. His hands grasped her waist.

“I know you are, Lily. I also know you didn’t want to do that and you are 100% wrong. I don’t want you. I need you and our child. I wasn’t sure at first if I would be able to handle looking at our child and knowing who their father is. Then I realized that it didn’t matter to me. Half you is more than enough for me to fully love this baby. You are both mine and I would do anything for either of you”

Her hands moved through his hair and he sighed, content that she was listening to him. A Butter of movement passed under his cheek and she tensed. She removed herself from his touch so fast that he tumbled forward. She pulled her dress on and went to sit at the table. She began eating and he cautiously approached his chair.

“Lily, what’s wrong?” Her face paled and he reached for her. “Lils? Baby? Talk to me.”

“You forgot a drink.”

“What?”

She pointed at her plate. “I’m thirsty.”

He narrowed his eyes as he studied her anxious face. Her heartbeat was fast and he could smell the fear coming off of her. He walked over to the mini- fridge in the room to lock inside. He silently cursed. He couldn’t very well hand her whiskey. He slammed it shut.

“I’ll ask someone to bring you up some juice.”

“It’ll be faster if you go get it.”

He stared at her. What was she up to? Did she think he wouldn’t notice the change in her? He crossed his arms over his chest.

“We were talking.”

“I’m done talking. A drink, please.”

He sighed and walked over to her. He tilted her face up to study her face.

“Promise me you will stay here.”

“I promise.”

it, Lily. Promise to stay here in this room and wait for me.”

She gripped his wrist. “I promise to stay here and wait for you,” she whispered, her voice breaking on the last word.

He headed to the door, fighting Gideon who was trying to force him to stay. He stopped before he opened it.

“Listen to me, Lily. I love you and I want to be with you. When you are ready. I will be here. Until then, I will wait.” He turned the doorknob. “I am begging you, please, be here when I get back.”

She didn’t answer. He stepped out and as soon as he shut the door, he sprinted down to the dining hall. He hurriedly poured a cup of orange juice. Sommer stood up and ran from the hall. He cursed and dropped the cup to dart out after her. She went left at the landing while he went to the right towards his room. He flung the door open and after checking the bathroom, stormed out of the room, heading the direction that Sommer had gone. Property of Nô)(velDr(a)ma.Org.

“Why, Lily?,” he muttered. “Sorry, sis, but I’m not letting her go again. Goddess, spare me from her wrath.”