My Not Yet Mate

Chapter 46

She squeezed Sommer

Ealand left her mind, the framed her heard

“Thow are you feeling?”

Lily rubbed her hand over the small bump she was starting to show. How did she feel? Honestly, she felt like she could actually face the world now. He didn’t incli at shadows anymore and she hadn’t panic when she went outside with Somture yesterday. Mar sighed.

“I feel better. Thank you so much for all your help,

She hugged her. “Baby, you did the work. You laced your demons every day for the last four months. Yan healed. We just stood beside you. We an really proud of you.”

Lilly smiled. “Thank you,” Kalani sat back and Lily’s heart dropped andomly. “What’s wrong, Land?”

That Alden and Sasha ate leasting sismal of the other kingur

dry. “Wheat about it?

*Well, ummm… you will be staying in their adjoining rooms while the kings are here?

Lily narrowed her eyes. “Why?”

coming”

Her heart stopped. Laikan was coming? She looked around wildly as if he was going to suddenly appear in her mom, She mentirely licked her. ryes darted to the window and then the door. She

wondered if

“Don’t even think about it, Lily. I have alreadly told Alden and Sasha that Sommer will be staying with you. You can stay in the mom the entire time. Lukas will not come there. He has already been told that while he is here, he is to respect your wishes and not force his presence on you. If you want to see him, that’s up in you, but there is no pressure for pour to go to see him.”

“Okay,” she whispered. “When will he be here?”

Kalani looked over her shoulder at the clock. “Within the hour. Do you need me in do something for your

“No, no. I just… amm… She turned to Sommer. “Can I borrow a hndie?

“Actually, Lily…” Lily looked at her. “Lokas sent some stuff for you.”

Her mouth dropped open. “He what?”

Her eyes glazed over and a moment later the door opened. Jo and than walked in pushing carts. Ully jumped up and ran into the bathroom. She slammed the dour and pressed her luck into it, panting Oh, Goddess. She looked down at her stomach and sank to her knees. Her eyes closed and hit her knuckles to keep from sobbing out band. Someone knocked and the door shook a little,

“July, I know you don’t want to see us, but I just wanted to make sure you were okay?”

“I’m fine,” she yelled through the door. “Go away, please

In sighed. “Alright. If you need anything, here’s my number”

A cand was pabed under the door and the picked it up. ‘Jo^nn, Beta of Hetas, 212-4548‘. She flipped it over. “‘Cell: 614-2729. Lily sighed. She wished: she could be comfortable. She missed

Lukas, but every time she had picked up the phone to call him, she had been too scared to go tirugh

She wanted to talk to him and see if he would still want her after talking about the huby, but she always panicked and hung up, the hit her head against the door. She was almost fully at prace with what Loatie had done to her, so why couldn’t she give him a chance? Another knock on the r had ber standing up. She cracked the door open to look at Sommer.

door

“Are they gone?”

She nodded. Lily opened the door more to look around the room. Everyone had left, except her and Sommer who was excited. She took Lily’s hand and pulled her over to the cars that had multiplied from two to four. Sommer began to look through the clothes on the cart while Lily moved between them. On the fourth rack, there were stacks of boxes.

Diapers, wipes, a carseat and tons of baby clothes were carefully situated on it. She blinked in surprise and a tear crept down her face. She ran her fingers over the little onesies in every color. She picked up one of the small plain boxes to open it. Inside, there was the smallest pair of shoes she had ever seen. This pair was pink, but the next box held black tennis shoes for a boy. She sighed.

“Hey, Sommer?”

“Yeah, Lily?”

“Do you know what time dinner is?”

“I do believe it is going on now. It’s 6:30.

Lily walked back to the first rack and pulled a summer dress two sizes too big off of it. She quickly changed into it and stood in front of the mirror. She turned every direction, eyeing her stomach. The baggy dress hid her bump and she touched the mirror. It was obvious she had put weight on. Her face was a little bloated and she groaned. Sommer moved behind her and pulled her hair back. She put a butterfly comb in her hair and Lily turned her head to look at it.

“What’s this?”

Sommer put her chin on her shoulder on Lily’s shoulder and wrapped her arms around her waist.

“It was on the cart that Lukas sent ”

She turned her head again to look at the perfectly sculpted blue and purple ornate comb. Little pearls were strategically placed on it and on the back, the initials L L were engraved into it.

“Who’s LL? My initials are L. W.,” I Lily wandered out loud.

Land

Sommer smiled and kissed her cheek. “Last time he was here, he called you Lilianna Lincoln. Not washington. All of your clothes are labeled L L all of the baby clothes are monogrammed Baby Lincoln. Guess he didn’t want anybody to steal your stuff.”

“I don’t deserve him.”

Sommer took her hand and put it on her own face. “Repeat after me, Lily. I am beautiful.”

“I am beautiful

**I am worthy.”

Lily hesitated. “I am worthy.”

am a survivor.”

“I am a survivor.”

She made Lily touch the mirror. “I am perfect just the way I am.”

Lily’s eyes ran over her reflection. “I am perfect just the way I am,” she whispered, not fully believing it.

Sommer kissed her cheek. “Good. Now, that you are looking like a whole buffet, can we go eat?”

Lily giggled. Sommer always knew exactly what to say to make her feel better. She loved her for it. Sommer led her out of the room and down to dining hall. They ran into Sommer’s mom on the way down and she fell into step beside them.

“Hey, girls. How are you doing?”

“Hey, Mrs. Ares.”

to the

“Come now, Lily. You know better than that.”

She flushed. Ever since she had gotten to the castle, Sommer’s mom had become her adoptive mother. It was nice to have her around. She had had one woman that treated her like she was truly her daughter and it made her happy to have one that did again. She smiled.

“I’m good, Mom. I just wanted to see someone.” Property of Nô)(velDr(a)ma.Org.

She grinned and touched her nose. “Tell me, my dear. Could that person be a handsome royal member who is supposed to be here today?”

Lily looked away, blushing. “Maybe.”

They entered the dining hall and her eyes immediately locked with Lukas’s. She took a step towards him, mesmerized by the intensity of the green eyes staring back at her. Her mouth went dry and her hands started sweating. She found herself standing directly in front of him in the blink of an eye. He didn’t speak. He didn’t reach for her. He didn’t move. He didn’t even breathe. The whole room faded into nothingness as her world narrowed to just encompass the two of them.

“Lukas,” she whispered.

He swallowed. “Lily”

She opened her mouth and nothing came out. Oh, Goddess, this was so embarrassing. Her hands started to nervously play in her skirt.

“Lukas, L.”

Her chest tightened and she couldn’t breathe. She took a step back, trying to breathe in deep. Her vision blurred and Aiden got up. She swayed and he leapt over the table to catch her. He scooped her up and carried her out of the hall. Dots formed behind her eyes and she fainted.

Lily sat up with her heart pounding wildly. Sommer rubbed her arm.

“Come on, Lily, Lay back down.”

“What – what time is it?”

“It’s 4 AM, honey. You’ve been out for 8 hours. Are you okay? Are you hungry? I can go get you food.”

“No… I just… Ummmm. What happened?”

“You fainted. Lukas tried to come after you, but Sasha ordered him to stay away from you unless you sought him out. I have never seen someone fight a command that hard. He started sweating blood. It was actually really cool. Sasha is a bad bitch.”

Lily nodded as she climbed out of the bed. She walked over to the door. Sommer sat up.

“Lily, where are you going?”

She ignored Sommer to follow her nose down two levels and through three hallways. She stopped outside of the room she had first slept next to Lukas in. She put her hand on it and sighed. She could hear him breathing inside. She swallowed and opened the door. She slipped inside and shut it behind her. She hesitated just inside the door.

“Lukas? Are you awake?”

“Yeah.”

“You can’t sleep?”

“Haven’t been able to in months.”

She approached the bed. “I was wondering something..”

“What is it?”

“Can I sleep in here with you? Before you answer, I know I should not be asking, but I have really missed you and I-”

He lifted the blankets up. “You’re babbling, Lils. Come to bed.”