Forbidden Desire

I could barely breathe, and my whole body was reacting to his black eyes staring at me as if I were his prey.

“If you’re scared, then tell me… How do you want it? How do you like it? Just tell me, and I guarantee I’ll do my best to make you overflow with pleasure… And if you don’t want to talk, I’ll decipher it from your moans if you want me to go faster or slower. Just don’t use it as an excuse not to move forward because satisfaction will be an understatement for what you’ll feel when I’m done with you!”

My legs wobbled as his husky, deep voice said those things. My whole body now seemed to be on fire; I knew I couldn’t wait another minute, and before I knew it, I was clinging to his neck, devouring his lips.

“Then make me yours, Ji! Make me forget my fears, my past, my name. Just make me yours!”

He didn’t think twice before pushing me to sit on the counter, and I crossed my legs around his body, feeling his tongue dancing with mine in a deep and intense kiss that completely took our breath away. This time, I wouldn’t pull back; I slid the straps of my nightgown down my shoulders, exposing my breasts to him. He admired them while biting his lips, making me feel like the most desired woman in the world. I almost went to heaven when I felt his masculine hands on my breasts before he took his lips to them, sucking eagerly and making my whole body react. A moan escaped my lips, echoing through the kitchen, and I felt his warm mouth playing with my nipples, tingling with desire. He was between my legs, and I was already grinding against him, rubbing my intimacy against his bulge. When I reached for his member for the first time, I was surprised by its thickness, as I could barely close my hand around it. I felt it pulsating in my hand, and a moan escaped his lips when I squeezed it gently.

“I want you now, Ji!”

I began to remove my panties myself, and he gave me a wicked smile when I threw it somewhere in the kitchen. He kissed me intensely and descended with his lips to my breasts, sucking on each one before continuing down to where I really wanted him to be. I was already completely exposed to him when we heard the doorbell, and neither of us had ever been so irritated by a sound before.

“Please ignore it!”

I kissed him intensely, pulling him to me. I tried to slip my hands into his pants, but the doorbell sounded again. When we tried to ignore it again, the sound of someone knocking on the door was heard, and then Jason Maia’s voice was present, leaving Jihoon and me completely frustrated.

“Jane! Are you there? Is everything okay?”

He rang the doorbell again, making Jihoon and me separate, trying to control our desire, which was so intense that it seemed like our bodies would combust right there. We couldn’t separate, and I was still rubbing my intimacy against Jihoon’s member when we heard Jason Maia’s voice once, and we gave up, huffing in frustration. Jihoon messed up his own hair trying to calm down, while I was gathering strength to get up with my legs completely shaky. I took a deep breath, trying to calm down my accelerated heartbeat, and when I heard Jason’s voice again, I ended up responding somewhat irritated.

“I’M COMING!”

I adjusted my nightgown, covering my breasts, and got off the counter.

“Of course, he had to show up now…”

He said, still frustrated, and I approached him, kissing him intensely.

“This isn’t over; we’ll finish later!”

“I can’t wait!”

I walked past him and felt a light slap on my butt, making me smile. I looked around for my panties and couldn’t find them.

“Oh my God, where did my panties go?”

“I don’t know; you twirled them around your finger like a basketball.”

I laughed, and we heard the doorbell again.

“I’ll open the door for this annoying one before he knocks it down.”

“Please do that while I look for my panties, and I’ll find you guys in the living room in a moment.”

He gave me a kiss before leaving, and I continued to search for the missing panties. I felt a presence behind me and presumed he had already come back, but I didn’t turn around to look, still puzzled by the disappearance of the piece until I found it on top of the sandwich maker and celebrated.

“Okay, I found my panties. I didn’t think they would end up here. That’s probably why people don’t have sex in the kitchen.”

I was laughing, but when I turned around, I saw Jason standing there in the kitchen door and almost had a heart attack.

“Jason, what are you doing here in the kitchen? I told Ji I’d meet you in the living room.”

He shrugged, but his sad expression broke my heart.

“He got a call as soon as he opened the door… It seemed important, so when I asked where you were, he just pointed to the kitchen.”

“Ah, I see… Do you want coffee?”

“I’ll take it, thank you!”

I grabbed a cup to serve him and pointed for him to sit at the small table there. He went to the table, sitting down, and I noticed his eyes were swollen and with dark circles. I thought he was sad because of the panty incident, but now that I was observing him better, I realized he was really not okay, and it couldn’t just be that. So I served the coffee and went to the table, sitting next to him.

“Hey! Is everything okay? Did something happen?”

He took a sip of the coffee and finally looked at me in the eyes, they seemed laden with guilt, and seeing him like that left me in complete despair. Those beautiful brown eyes that I loved so much were teary, and it destroyed me, so before I knew it, I was taking his hands in mine.

“Hey, what happened? Talk to me?”

He withdrew his touch and wiped away a tear that rolled, trying to smile, but that smile didn’t fool me; on the contrary. Seeing him trying to hide his pain only made me feel worse.

“It’s nothing, I… It’s just that I think it’s starting to sink in…”

I looked at him confused, and he continued.

“Everything that’s been happening, you moving out, Jinhee losing the baby, and today… Today, I saw a magazine where you’re with Jihoon looking so intimate and so happy with him…”

I didn’t even know what to say; I knew this magazine would eventually reach him; those photos were taken by paparazzi, and neither Jihoon nor I intended for our private moments to be exposed in that way.

“Look, about that magazine…”

I tried to explain, but he shook his head and smiled with watery eyes.

“You don’t need to explain anything to me… I know I have no right over you… It’s just that… It’s hard to accept that I’ve really lost you now.”

I lost my breath as he stared at me, and in that moment of weakness, I just wanted to scream to him that he still had everything of me, but before I could say anything, Jihoon walked into the kitchen, visibly irritated and grumbling about something while typing fiercely on his phone.

“I can’t believe this… If they think they can…”

I could barely understand his grumbles, and even Jason looked at him confused.

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He took a deep breath and ran his hands through his hair in frustration before looking at me and seeming to gather courage to speak.

“I have to go to Japan… For two weeks.”

“What? When?”

He shrugged, but I could see how annoyed he was about it in his eyes.

“Today…”

“What? But the national championship is in five days… I… I can’t do it without you!”

I stood up and went to him, and he hugged me, trying to calm me down while I felt my whole world crumbling. I was doing my best, with Jihoon’s encouragement and my teacher’s, I really thought I could win, but without him there by my side to give me strength, I didn’t feel like a true artist, just a girl who came from nothing holding a paintbrush.

“I know, love, and believe me, I’ve been trying to cancel these shows since we started dating. You know I’ve been canceling international shows because I don’t want to be away from you, but this particular show can’t be canceled because of Japan’s stricter laws, so since the contract was signed a long time ago, they didn’t accept the cancellation.”

“But why didn’t you tell me any of this before?”

“I didn’t want to worry you, and until now, I thought it was already sorted out, but Yan Suk himself, who owns the company, just called me and said I need to pack my bags because the manager is already coming to pick me up.”

“What? Now?”

I couldn’t believe this was happening; just when I needed him the most, he wouldn’t be here, and I couldn’t hide my frustration.

“Sorry, love, I tried everything to stay here with you, but I really have no choice. This is work, and unfortunately, I’ll only be back in two weeks on the day of that award ceremony where you’ll come with me.”