The Wright One

JUSTIN

She came up to me with that cute little pose that she does. I’m not even sure she knows she does it. It’s this thing where she hugs her books to her chest and bites the corner of her lip. Then she shuffles her feet. Instantly I am seeing her under me. She felt so damn good. Better than I ever thought it would be.

“Um, Justin, can I talk to you for a minute?” I didn’t trust myself to be alone with her. I couldn’t. Not here. I couldn’t let everyone know that I was into her. Because I really was. More than I ever care to admit. But that would kill my rep.

“Sure, shoot.” I am sure this looks really bad, but I can’t have anyone think that I am into her. I want her, but not here. With Candy plastered to my body and Hannah talking to me like the nervous girl that she is, I look like a total dick.

She glares at me. “Alright, I don’t want to be your tutor anymore. I think you should find someone else.”

She just turns and walks away. The thought of never seeing her again, gutted me. I quickly reached out for her and grabbed her arm. But she pulled away from me like I was fire and she was going to get burned.

“Hannah, please don’t be like that.” I give her my most charming smile. I know she likes it. Usually it makes her do this cute little blush that spreads over her cheeks and makes me want to kiss the shit out of her. But not this time. This time she looks like she is going to kill me.

She seems to growl at me and there is no hint of the blush that I love. “I’m not being like anything. It is obvious you aren’t serious about your grades and I am not going to help you any more. Maybe your new girlfriend can help you.” This has nothing to do with my grades and has everything to do with this weekend. With what I want to happen again more than anything.

Candy pipes up. “Oh, I can help you so much Justin.” She gives me this smile that makes me a little sick. I have never slept with her. I have been nice to her and I sometimes hug her like I was, but I would never sleep with a girl like her. She is way too easy.

She waves her arm towards Candy as if to make her point. “See, you are taken care of. Just do me a favor and leave me alone. I mean it’s not like you even liked me anyway.” She couldn’t be any more wrong.

Then she walks away from me. The best thing that ever happened to me and she is just gone and wants nothing to do with me. I feel my guts being ripped out and I don’t even have a fucking clue on how to fix it.

My dumbass did this and I won’t be able to fix it. She is gone and I can’t get her back.

I shoot up out of bed drenched in sweat. I don’t even know where the fuck I am. But suddenly I am doubled over in pain. My head feels like it is going to explode. I groan in pain, laying back down on the bed.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

I hear my brother laugh. “I knew you would have the worst hangover.”

“Not so loud.” I moan. “Why the fuck am I here?”

“Well, we couldn’t very well leave you on your own. You know you would have choked on your vomit. Because you’re an asshole like that. Then mom would have blamed me. So here we are, my girl and I having to trade off watching your ass because we both have to work today. I mean did you really think that getting shit faced drunk was the way to fix your problems?”

“No, not really. It just seemed like a good idea at the time. Where is Megan?”

“In the shower. So, are you going to man up or what?”

I try to glare at him, but I don’t think he is taking me seriously. He’s just leaning against the door frame with his arms folded over his chest like he is some fucking model or something. Yeah, fuck you too, David. “Fuck yes I am. I am not a total dick. I would have been there all along if she had told me about it.”

“What if she doesn’t want to let you be a part of his life? Are you going to back off?”

I don’t know. I don’t think Hannah would do that to me. But then again I thought that she would have told me she was pregnant, but she didn’t. “I haven’t thought about it.”

He rolls his eyes like I am a fucking moron. Which ok, to be fair I have been stupid a lot in my life and maybe I should have an answer for this. “You really just want to let your son just live his life without you?”

“Fuck no. But what am I supposed to do?”

“Well, we have things called lawyers and courts. You fight for your right to your son. That’s what the fuck you do.” He growls at me.

“I get that, but that would drag him into it too. I wouldn’t want him to live his life in and out of court houses until the battle is done. That sounds like a sucky childhood.”

“So, you would rather he live without his father. That’s great Justin. Let me know how that works out for you.” He looks like he is super disappointed in me.

“David. Hannah, isn’t going to do that. Now that I know about him, she is going to let me see him. I know it. Hannah isn’t a bitch. She reacted to my stupidity. This is my fault not hers.”

He sighs. “Then fucking fix it. Don’t lose your son.”

“I don’t plan on it. I want my son.” I have never said truer words in my life. As soon as I saw him yesterday I had this link to him. “He looks just like me.” I smile at that thought.

“There are pain killers and gatorade in the kitchen. Get cleaned up and then handle your shit. I don’t want another call like last night. Get your head together. I know it was a blow yesterday, but it is a reminder that you are an adult now and you can’t act like your dick is just at a party every day.”

I roll my eyes, even though it kills me to do it. “I do not think my dick is at a party everyday. Ok, maybe in the past I may have acted like that. But not recently. Recently I have been focusing on opening my accounting firm. I haven’t even been on a date in a year.”

“I’m not trying to be an asshole, I just know that you will make the biggest mistake of your life if you let this boy slip through your fingers. You have already missed so much and you don’t want to miss anymore.” His tone got softer. I understand where it is coming from, I just don’t like that David seems to think he is smarter than me about something that he has no fucking clue. He has never been in this situation. He doesn’t know everything.

“I think I got this big bro. I’m not going to lose my son.” That is the truth. I will do what I have to to be in his life. Unless he tells me that he hates my guts then I will just have to fight harder to get him to forgive me.