The Wolf In Me

Chapter 5: Part 2 The voice within

My skin was too small for my body and felt like I wanted to shred it into pieces just like she said what happened to her. I started to think of how much my future must change now that I got into this mess.

I had a normal life and just because of that stupid photo my boss gave me, I am becoming something else. Something I never thought was real. I was wondering if it was all but a dream. I closed my eyes tightly and rubbed them with my shaking hands, and then I opened them just hoping I would find myself in my bedroom waking up from a nightmare.

No, I was still there, naked and alone in that darkness feeling scared and worried at the same time. I started weeping feeling like everything I have worked for has been flushed away in a moment. My job, my friends. What would I say to my boss? Or to mum? Hey ma, I have just been upgraded from human into a wolf. Awesome right? I rolled my eyes, thinking how stupid I was for even thinking of telling her.

That's it, I have to start anew. I wept till I got tired, feeling frustrated with the situation and everything.

"You'll feel lighter, yet stronger. The best feeling would be of the wind touching your skin as you run smelling the freshness of the trees around you. The freedom is worth every inch of pain you are feeling right now. Trust me," Mei said earlier before leaving the room.

A vision came to me where this beautiful woman was wearing a white, more transparent dress that flowed down her thin waste. The light breeze made her light brown hair flow away from her face, revealing her beautiful face. The scent coming from her made me want to follow her. It was Mei. She looked at me and smiled, then turned away walking seductively on the grass that takes you to a large lake. I tried to stand from the ground but I was pushed back by the solid chains that were heavy around my arms and ankles.

"No, don't. It's not safe! Come back," I screamed out as I watched her walking into the lake, disappearing. I was brought back to reality by the clinging of chains.

I tried to stand up from the floor to walk just a little and try to relieve some of the stress I was having but my body felt weak and I fell back on the cold hard ground. The pain was slowly consuming me and I needed to scream out all the stress.

I felt my senses heighten and my vision became more clear in the dark. I closed my eyes and stood there in the silence. I started hearing people walking and chatting from the other side of the door. I tried to walk closer to it to listen to the conversation but the chains pulled my legs and stopped me from getting any further. I felt like a prisoner. I tried pulling the chains but I was growing weaker and weaker and my energy level was getting way to low for me to break free.

I laid on the floor and stared at the ceiling. Images of my friends and family were going through my mind. I imagined myself at a party having fun. My mother and father were there too dancing their asses off and giggling at each other. Aunt Linda sipping down some wine and smiling at her guests feeling proud of herself for being a good organiser. My cousin Katie flirting with my best friend Dean that used to follow me wherever I go. That would be very much typical of her. Then I was snapped out of it when I heard footsteps approaching which brought me back to reality.

I waited for a while before Mei arrived with my phone in her hand and she handed it to me. I noticed the time was eleven o'clock. I was worried about mum as she must have thought something was wrong.

"Don't tell her. Our kind must remain a secret. Promise!" She insisted looking at me with her head held a bit low.

I nodded and looked at the phone.

"I wasn't going to tell her anyway. She might think I am crazy and gets worried that I need to go to a psychiatric hospital."

I pressed mum on my call list and waited for an answer.

"Hey ma, I know it's late but I overslept," I lied trying to cover the truth from her. How would she believe what was happening to me?!

"Hey sweety. Oh, God. You have no idea how upset I was getting. I almost called the police," she said shakily. ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

"I'm fine ma, don't worry. I'm working on the story. But I believe that it will take me longer than usual. I am going to stay in a motel for a while until I close the story. Is that ok?" I asked hoping she would believe me and that excuse would give me more time.

I waited for a while to get an answer. Then I hear a sigh from the other side.

"Ok darling. Be careful ok? Make sure to call often. Love you sweety."

I looked at Mei and saw her nodding.

"Yeah mum, see you soon. Love you too," I hung up and then I placed my phone on the floor.

"So tell me Mei, where am I?" I asked her trying to get some answers from her for the millionth time.

"Underground," she said shortly.

I looked around and there were just one window, a table and a chair below it. Nothing more. Since I was still stuck in chains I wondered why they kept me in them.

"May I ask why you are keeping me locked in these?" I lifted my feet as I stood up from the corner and pointed at the chains.

"Sometimes certain werewolves get uncontrollable so we keep them in chains until they start getting used to their wolf. Most of us become werewolves first but if we remain pure we become wolf meaning we would be more in control and more gentle," she explained.

I stared at her for a while trying to consume all the information. I looked down at myself and gazed at the tattoo on my chest.

"What does it mean? The tattoo on your chest?" She asked as she noticed me looking at it.

I kept staring at it for a while then I looked at Mei.

"The wolf is a symbol of my father's favourite animal. He passed away a few years ago due to an accident. The owl symbolizes my mother's wisdom and the dove is a symbol of my late sister Mabel. The flowers I tattooed around them are a symbol of my love for them all."

She walked towards me and touched my chest with her finger moving it around the outline of each tattoo. She looked up at me with a concerned face.

"You love deeply and you have lost so much."

I looked at her with my passionate eyes. I moved towards her to smell her scent so close to mine and as I had my eyes closed she started to kiss me slowly. I felt a shiver down my spine and something inside me wanted to be released. I groaned as I felt the pain getting strong again. She pulled away from me and I could see her eyes started to change from blue to yellow.

"My wolf is calling for her alpha and mate," She explained.

I growled as I started to feel my bones slowly breaking. I could also hear them crack.

"Your wolf wants to come out she explained. You are holding it in and the more you resist the more painful it will be."

"Let me see the light, let me out!" something called out from within.

I opened my eyes wide in the realisation that my wolf had just spoken to me.

"How? How do I do it?" I asked aloud, "I can't. I am too scared. I don't want to die," I screamed out feeling my head burn.

I lifted my hands on my head and held it tightly feeling the pressure. Then everything stopped abruptly.

I started to breathe in and out heavily, making my chest move up and down as I laid on the ground feeling weaker. I knew I couldn't hold back much longer than I already have but this was all unnatural to me.

I looked into Mei's beautiful eyes and a howl escaped me.

"You look ready!" She smiled and moved slightly backwards, giving me a nof of encouragement.