The Unwanted Bride Of Atticus Fawn

~ALARIC~Text content © NôvelDrama.Org.

I fell back against the office chair and stared at the wall blankly. I knew I had to tell Clara the truth but not once did I think she would find out this way.

The hate I felt for myself right now was unimaginable. I should have told her, I shouldn't have waited for Nicole to tell her. Now she didn't know all of the details and completely hated my guts.

I should have opened my mouth, I should have explained that it happened during the full moon and wasn't even aware that I had done it until recently. I was too shocked that she'd found out everything from Nicole.

She thinks I willingly slept with my ex-wife, she thinks I purposefully played with her emotions. She doesn't realize that I didn't have any desire to be intimate with another woman, she doesn't realize that she's the only woman that I want.

I knew it was selfish of me to get closer to her while knowing I had gotten my ex-wife pregnant. However, I couldn't control myself around Clara. Whenever I was around her, I felt this uncontrollable need to take her and make her mine. It always confused me and made me do things that I would never normally do.

As soon as I heard the sound of the door creaking open, my head snapped up with hope. I was desperate to see Clara again, I was hoping that she would give me one more chance to explain. However, the moment I saw that it was Nicole walking in, my heart sank. The disappointment I felt was immense, as I was hoping for the woman that I was hopelessly in love with to come through that door and bring back my reason to live along with her.

"Why do you look so depressed?" she asks as she walks closer to me.

As soon as I saw her approaching, I felt a strong urge to push her away. I couldn't even imagine being near her right now. Despite all my efforts to keep it a secret, she had gone ahead and told Clara that she was pregnant. It made me incredibly angry because I had made it crystal clear to her that I wanted to wait for the right moment to come clean about the situation. It wasn't the first time that Nicole spoke to Clara with hopes of pushing her away from me. This time, she may have finally succeeded.

"Don't," I growl as I move from the chair. "I can't promise you that I will act in a civilized way after what you just did."

As I stood there, seething with anger, she suddenly stopped walking and looked at me with a surprised expression. It was as if she was caught off guard by my reaction, even though I knew for a fact that she was fully aware of what she was doing when she spoke to Clara earlier. I could see the guilt written all over her face, and it only made me angrier. How could she pretend to be innocent now, after causing so much trouble?

"What exactly did I do that was so wrong, Alaric?" she demands. "You should be thanking me. I did the hard work for you as I mentioned before. Clara needed to know the truth and since it was so difficult for you to tell her, I thought that I was doing a good thing by telling her the truth."

I run a hand down my face, "Please leave my office. I'm not in a good state of mind right now and I would rather not have this conversation with you. I need to find Clara and make things right."

Her eyes widen, "what do you mean by that? You can't actually be considering being with that woman?"

"What I do is none of your business, I made that clear to you in the past,” I growl. “The only reason you're in my life right now is because of that baby.”

“That baby?” she gasps. “Do you mean YOUR baby?”

“LEAVE,” I growl. “I told you that I do not want to see you right now Nicole. Leave!”

She doesn't move an inch. It's as if she's made of stone. I wait for a moment, expecting her to attempt to leave. I can feel my frustration building up, and I know that I can't stay in this room for a second longer. So without waiting for her to make an attempt to leave, I storm out of the office without another word. The door slams shut behind me, but I don't look back. I need to cool off, and I know that I won't be able to do that if I'm in the same room as her.

I had to find Clara. I had to find her and beg for her forgiveness. I had to beg her to give me just one last chance.