The Love That Passed

Colleen’s POV

I felt relieved when Dr. Gerard agreed to my request. I was hesitant to ask him for such a favor because whether he told me or not, I know that he was disappointed when I didn’t manage to convince Jared to lend me the money for my surgery two years ago. I saw him smiling and laughing the way he used to after I confirmed with him about my decision.

I actually didn’t want to ask him for help but I felt like I wanted to live and enjoy the life that God had given me so I wanted to protect it and do everything I can to save it. Even if I am not happy with my marriage, life is still beautiful and is worth living to see my future.

I didn’t expect to see Jared in the hospital and I was worried for a bit when I saw his angry face. Well he was always like that so I am getting used to it. But it was different that time and I don’t know what the difference was. He left me so I went home by myself, it was fine though. But when he confronted me in his bedroom, I didn’t expect him to do what he did.

I went back to my room to think about that but I couldn’t think of any possible reason for him to kiss me. Even if I knew to myself that it was impossible, the possibility of making our relationship better came into my mind until I fell asleep.

When I woke up, I left my bedroom and went to the kitchen to eat but Betty told me that Jared wanted to see me. So I decided to go and see him first before I got myself food. I got in his study when I heard him acknowledge my presence and when I got in, he was talking to someone on the phone and motioned me to quiet so I did what he wanted and waited for him to finish his conversation.

The kiss we shared earlier was in my mind and I thought that we would be discussing that, but we didn’t. He had a lot of questions that started with Dr. Gerard again when we talked until I ended up admitting to him that I married him for money. It wasn’t exactly the case but it appears that way.

Now, he wanted to give me what I needed just because I told him that I asked for Dr. Gerard’s help. He was late and even if I wanted to live, I still have doubts that the operation will be a success when the time comes. He was furious and angry, he actually yelled at me. But it’s fine, I already admitted to him everything and I have no burden anymore.

Leaving him in his study was the best thing to do at that very moment so I excused myself. But he warned me before I opened the door. He really didn’t want to see me with Dr. Gerard. Under different circumstances, I would think that he was jealous. But because I know how he feels about me before and especially now, I shook that idea in my head.

I went back to the kitchen and got my food. If I had known that we would only fight, I would have eaten first before I went to see him. “Are you all right, Colleen?” Betty asked and I smiled at him, nodding. She had been a good friend to me and acted as a mother to me. I feel happy having her around.

“You have to eat a lot. Lately, I noticed that you were paler than before.” she commented and I know that. I feel my body weakening day by day, if not for the result of my laboratories during my check-up, I would have thought that I am going to die anytime now.

“Yeah, I noticed it too. I overslept and didn’t get the proper sunlight my body needed in the morning.” I replied.

“Do you want me to wake you up?” she asked, concerned.All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.

“No need, I will do it myself. I couldn’t let anyone do things for me.” I replied. “I will alarm my phone daily so I will make sure to do it regularly.” I added and she nodded.

“You eat a lot. Those were all healthy and as you noticed, I never cook food with a lot of fats and cholesterol.” she said and I appreciate that. At first I was worried that I would have to eat what she would cook. I don’t know if Mommy Claire told her about my health but I felt relieved when she always cooked healthy foods.

“Thank you Betty.” I replied and she left me alone. I went to the dining table after I got my food and ate. While doing so, I couldn’t help but think about Jared. I like the kiss we shared and I hope to do it again. Hayyy, what’s wrong with me? Since when did I ever longed for a man in my life?

I didn’t notice that I was not actually eating and was just playing with my spoon until Jared said, “Are you just going to play with your food? You had been doing that for about five minutes already.” I looked at him and then on my plate and he was right because my food was spread everywhere on my plate.

“Just put them in the trash if you didn’t want to finish it or if you didn’t like it.” he added.

“I like the food. It’s healthy and delicious.” I told him immediately. I didn’t want Betty to know that I am not enjoying her food. Just why is he here now? Well this is his house but he doesn’t usually stay in any part of the house that I was in. Then Betty came and Jared told her,

“Please get me my food as well.” Betty looked at him and nodded.

“I am going to bring it to your study.” she replied.

“No, I am going to eat here.” Jared said and sat in the vacant chair beside me. I was not the only one who was shocked, even Betty looked at him in disbelief. He noticed that Betty was not moving so he told her,

“Why is there no more food already?”

“No, wait and I will get yours.” Betty replied and hurried to the kitchen. I continued eating and I wanted to finish so I could get back to my room.

“You’re going to choke if you eat like that. You look like you were out of yourself earlier but now, you look like you wanted to leave the table.” he said. That’s what I want to do but I couldn’t tell him that because I was sure that he wouldn’t like it.

“Let’s eat together, from now on.” he said and that literally made my mouth wide open.