The Love That Passed

Colleens POV

I had to stay in the hospital since my scheduled CS is a week from now. The first time Jared told me about it, I was relieved. I know my body well and I was already having difficulties. As much as possible, I didn’t want to stay in the hospital. But, I am not going to risk my baby’s health with my fear.

Sometimes Jared left the house telling me that he would just check in the office or just buy something. Although I believe him, there’s still doubt in me that he was doing something he didn’t want to let me know. And that worries me. What if he was doing something dangerous? I don’t think I will be able to take it if something happens to him. He and our baby are my source of strength now and knowing he was hurt will definitely hurt me the most.

Like now, he said Ingrid had asked him to check on the financial report from last month, so he left early that morning. It was almost noon and he had not called me yet. I wanted to do it but thinking he was busy, I was afraid that I might disturb him from his work.

“My wife,” I heard him call, so I looked to see where his voice was coming from. I was by the pool and he came from our room.

“Hey,” I said, waving my hand at him when he finally emerged from the door. He was smiling and he looked really happy, so I guess nothing serious had happened.

“How are you this morning?” He asked after he gave a kiss on my cheek. He smells like he just got out of the car.

“Good, and so like our baby,” I replied, while he sat on a chair beside me.

“I’m sorry I didn’t call because I want to go home before lunch and eat with you and our baby.” He said while he stroked my tummy with his hand gently, and that washed my worries away.

“It’s fine, I also think that you’re busy, so I didn’t bother calling you, thinking I might just disturb you.”

“You can always call me whenever you want, you have all the rights to disturb me.” He replied and I felt happy about that.

“You don’t know how much I wanted you to do that. There were times when I couldn’t work because I was thinking about you.” He said, which surprised me. I never thought that it had happened to him. All this time, I thought that he was happy working because I was not there.

“You do?”

“Yes. I was thinking, why are you not calling me? Why are you not coming to the office announcing yourself as my wife? I thought before we got married that you would be doing that to ensure that I was not doing anything or cheating on you.”

“I never think that way. At first I thought it would be fine with me if you still saw Stacey,” I admitted. He looked at me seriously and I looked down. “Although I know to myself that it will hurt me, as your wife. But I know as well that I cannot give you every wife’s duty.” I continued. “I was afraid that you would end up getting mad at me once you found out that I am not going to be the kind of wife who will be able to support you but a burden instead.” I added in a low voice. Then I felt him hugging me.

“I’m sorry that I gave you so many worries and insecurities. I am an a**hole, but one thing I can assure you is that I never cheated on you with Stacey or any other woman.” He said, which made me even happy. Knowing that made me feel at ease. At least, I know that he has been faithful even if he doesn’t like me. And for that, I am very proud of him.

I was happy the whole afternoon that I was with him. At night, before we sleep, he prepares everything that we will be needing for the hospital. I told him that I was going to help him but he stopped me. He just let me watch him doing everything.

The next day, we went to the hospital and got admitted. I was scared, but I tried not to show him because it was the least that I could do for Jared. I knew that he was already hurting and letting him know about my fear will only add up to that.

As much as possible, I wanted him to see me being happy and relaxed, so he would too. We are each other’s strength and I was thankful that our family is there to support us.

“Are you feeling alright Colleen?” Dr. Chin asked after I was settled in a private room. I looked at her and, with a smile, replied casually.

“I’m fine and ready.” She smiled at me before she looked at Jared who was just listening to us.

“I assure you that we will be looking after her and the baby to make sure that everything will be alright. I have already formed my team for the operation and Dr. Gerard will be there as well to monitor her condition.” She told him and my husband nodded. I know that he is nervous because after he heard what Dr. Chin had said, I caught him sighing.

“Thank you Dr. Chin.” He replied.

“We will be starting to monitor her and the baby and I have already asked someone to place another bed for you. I’m pretty sure that you won’t be leaving her side.” Dr. Chin added.

After some instructions, she left us and Jared started to sort our things in a cabinet and, of course, he didn’t let me help him.

Every day, mom, mommy Claire, Ingrid and even Betty and Lott come to visit me. Especially in the morning because Jared goes to the office and comes before lunch.

He told me that it was all he could do to help Ingrid and I understood him. He never left without someone to replace him in looking after me, though.

I got used to the routine and everything was fine until the day before my CS schedule. Jared left in the morning but it was already night and I never saw him yet. Mom was with me and she just told me that he arrived when I was sleeping.

I didn’t argue with that because I understand that he was needed in the company too. I didn’t want to worry because the way I looked at mom, she was pretty relaxed.Content from NôvelDr(a)ma.Org.

“Mom, did Jared call already?” I asked. She was getting ready for bed.

“Not yet, but Ingrid told me that he will be back tomorrow before your operation.” She replied casually.

“Nothing is happening, right?” I asked, worried.

“I guess so. Ingrid was pretty normal when she talked to me. Although she had been complaining about a certain supplier of some sort.”

“Maybe it was the one who wanted to cancel their contract,” I told her.

“Other than that, did she say anything else?” I asked again.

“No,” she answered, “Is there something wrong?”

“I was just feeling uneasy. I had not seen Jared the whole day and I was worried.” I couldn’t help but answer.

“He must have wanted to do what he needs to do so tomorrow, he will be here for you and he doesn’t need to leave anymore.” Mom said, “For the meantime, you have to relax because tomorrow is your D day. You will become a mother and I am going to be a grandmother.” She added happily. I smiled and nodded at her in agreement. I followed her and got ready to sleep, looking forward to seeing my husband before my scheduled CS.