Chapter 75
I watched my beautiful fiancée pushing our daughter as she sat on the swing. Everything had been going great lately. We moved into our new house and it wasn't just a well-decorated,
massive mansion. It was a place I had always dreamt of having. Thankfully, I was lucky enough to have my wish
come true.
If somebody told me three years ago that I would be standing in my own home that I had with Emily and we would
be happy, I would have laughed at their face. I was in a horrendous state without her in my life, but now that I had her, I realized that she was the definition of happiness. She was everything I had ever wished for.
Not only her. Rosie was the beautiful addition that I never expected, yet she was that unique source of joy that I was grateful to have in my life.
But despite the blessings I had in my life, I was scared. No, I was petrified, because there were always reminders of what I had done to her. It was like the world didn't want her to forget how terrible I was.
"Have you decided on a date for your wedding?" Dad asked me, taking my mind away from the dark.thoughts that threatened to swallow me.
Perhaps I needed to call my therapist.
Emily and I decided to hold a family barbecue party to celebrate moving to our new home. We had been living here for almost a week and since Emily loved having our family over, she was excited when I suggested having a barbecue party. "It's going to be in five months. I want to get married to her now, but I can't," I answered him, taking a sip from my beer.
"Why?" Sam wondered. It was crazy how my friendship with Sam had evolved after Emily appeared in my life again. At first, he was my wife's best friend whom I was jealous of because he got to know her before I did.
I still could not forget that I learned from him about how sick Emily was. I knew I should have been thankful that he informed me, because I wasn't sure what would have happened to her if I hadn't returned home quickly.
For more than a month, I wanted to destroy his career before it even started when I saw him in the pictures with her,
yet my desires quickly changed. They went from wanting to make him unemployed for life to being ready to help him open his own company if he helped me find her.
Now, he had become family and it surprised me how easily the two of us managed to put the past behind us.
"Emily has a very important event in Paris soon and we want to have our wedding and honeymoon without needing to worry about work. We checked our calendars and found that the best time would be in five months," I explained to them. "I bet you can't wait," Ansel smirked, making me chuckle.
"I can't but I have to," I said. But waiting was scary too, because I was afraid that Emily might change her mind.
Music started playing and I found Maya coming towards us. She pulled Sam away who willingly walked away with his wife.
Soon, it wasn't just Sam who just got pulled away as my gorgeous girl strolled towards me and pulled me away.
I automatically found myself smiling widely. as the two of us danced together. The lyrics caught my attention and they felt so right. That was what I always wanted her to be sure of.
Just tell me it's not the end of the line
Just tell me it's not the end of the line
I never meant to break your heart
And I won't let this plane go down
I never meant to make you cry
I'll do what it takes to make this fly
"I bet you already have a song in your head for our first dance," I said, twirling Emily.
"You know me too well." She wrapped her arms around my neck and I held her close for a couple of seconds. I loved the way her body fit against mine.
"I Wanna Be Yours, huh?" I wondered and she nodded with a grin.
"But if you have something else in mind, I don't mind," she said, but I shook my head. I also wanted that song to be our first dance because I vividly remember the way we first danced on it in the kitchen. It was hard to remove from my memory how beautiful she looked as s 1/2
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that day, she was helping me bake a cake for my mum. She saw my frustration and instead of offering a whole new alternative, she helped me do what I originally wanted to do. The more I thought about the beautiful days we lived together, the more I realized that it was for her to fall for me, yet she made me believe that it was effortless.
"Can I ask you something?" I said, looking into her green eyes.
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"Have you ever regretted being with me?" She looked taken aback by my question, yet her answer was so fast, as if she didn't need to think about
her answer.
"There were times when I told myself that maybe my life would have been better if I hadn't met you, but the truth is... you have always been an important part of my life. I can't really regret being with the man who showed me what true love is."
"But I showed you what betrayal is, too," I pointed out. What the hell was I doing? She was finally mine and what? I was trying to convince her to leave me? What the fuck was wrong with me?
I just needed to be sure that she wouldn't wake up one day and regret being married to me. That was one of my greatest fears.
"Why are we exactly talking about this now? What's going on?" I loved the concern I sensed in her voice. She took me away from the crowd and the two of us sat down away from everybody else.
I took a heavy breath and took my phone out of my pocket. I opened a specific website and handed her my phone.
I watched her face as she read the article written about us. I waited for any sort of realization to appear on her face, but the indifference I saw calmed me down.
"Do you think that my love for you is so fickle that an article could sway me?" her tone was so steady.
"It's true, Emily," I argued.
"And don't I
know that, Julian? Don't I know that we have been through shit? I don't care what those articles say. The media is going to talk whether we like it or not. I love you and nothing is going to change that. I have put behind what happened and I wish you could too, because ever "And I'm in love with you," I said, pulling her into a kiss. "Do you know what I would like to do?"
"Enlighten me," she grinned.
"There's a race tonight and it's been so long since I last went to one," I told her.
"I think I better call Rosie's babysitter."
And just like that, I knew that I was going to have a unique date with the love of my life tonight.