Chapter 36: Pregnant
After spending quite hours on the beach, I decided to go back to the beach house-expecting that when I came back, Logan is already inside, waiting for me. But as soon as I opened the door and walked over to the living room, my shoulders dropped in disappointment. Nevertheless, I still roamed around until I already go in each corner-seeing nothing but myself who’s desperately searching for Logan.
I let out a deep sigh and walked back to the kitchen and prepared my food instead. I only tugged out a cup of noodles in the fridge because I am not in the mood to cook other than that. When it was already cooked, I sat on the stool and started to eat it alone. As I chewed it, I could also feel how my heart is being chewed painfully making me clutched on my chest. Many deep sighs pure of bitterness passed my lips before I ended up throwing the rest of the noodles I didn’t manage to finish because of the lumps that is keeps on building in my throat. Before I walked into the room, I suddenly looked up at the clock hanging on the wall and it just doubled the emotions filling my heart.
With heavy steps, I have reached the room and locked it before I went to the bathroom to take a bath. After that, I dive into the bed tirelessly, and later on, before I closed my eyes, tears filled them first. I fell asleep while crying and when I woke up past three in the afternoon, my face felt so sticky making me go to the bathroom first before I rushed outside. As I took my steps downstairs, I heard something coming from the kitchen. It sounds like someone is in there, busy doing something. Presuming that it was Logan who had already come back, I took my steps fast and rushed my feet to the kitchen-smiling widely. But my smile faded upon seeing an old woman, facing the sink while washing some vegetables on the strainer.
I faked a cough, making her jolt in place, and turned around to see me. “Are you, Alice?” she asked. I just nodded as an answer. “Oh, it’s nice to meet you, Alice. I am Auntie Precious, Logan’s personal maid before. It was nice to meet his wife,” she said smiling at me.
I awkwardly smiled. “It was nice to meet you too, Auntie. By the way, do you know where Logan is?” I couldn’t help but ask since she might know where he is.
The woman’s face brightened, seems like there is something popped up in her mind. “I saw him early this morning, he told me that he will just go back to the city for something. Didn’t he tell you where he is going?” I forced a smile to refrain my lips from stretching out the different one.
“Uhm… he actually told me. I am just worried because he took long,” I lied, sat on the stool afterward, and watched Auntie Precious cooking something she said for my and Logan’s dinner.
I grimaced secretly when she told me that it was our dinner. I bet it wouldn’t be. I don’t even know when will Logan come back. He didn’t tell me when and he didn’t even bother to call me nor text me when my number is just an easy tap on his phone. By the way, he is doing now and what he did this morning, I bet it was really easy for him to ignore and leave me behind. Well, what else should I expect? I know my place, I know where I am in his life and that was the last in his list of priorities. He probably didn’t care for me at all despite what happened last night.
Huh, that jerk! If only I know that after the pleasure he gives me is a pain, I should have listened to my brain and not in my heart. Now I regret everything… I regret doing that stuff the second time with him.
“Good night, Auntie.” Auntie Precious just waved her hand before she went out of the house, leaving me alone again. I looked at the clock and it told me that it was already eight in the evening yet Logan is still nowhere to be found.
I walked back into the room after I drink a glass of milk and headed to bed. I easily fell asleep and just woke a bit when I felt the space behind me dipped and then an arm snaked around my waist. When I smell the familiar smell of Logan, my sleepiness faded. My heart thumped when he came closer and pulled me towards his chest which almost made me slip a sound. Thankfully I have dared to refrain myself from doing so. I pretended that I am already sleeping even though his breath fanning my nape made me tickled and wanted me to let out a moan at the same time.
“I’m sorry, I came home late, baby…” I bit my tongue, preventing myself from speaking back. “I promise that I will make it up to you tomorrow,” he added and I am just there, continued my pretense.
Part of me wanted to twirl around and hug him back but I don’t let that part conquer me again. Every time I followed that part, it just puts me in pain. Every time I let my guard down, it will just send me to my downfall which I choose to create. But tonight is going to be different. If I have to control my breath, to push my acting skills so he won’t know that I am not sleeping, then I will gladly do. I will pretend to be the best I can…
“Uhm…” I moaned when I felt something thrusting between my legs. “Uhm…” I moaned once again, eyes still pressed together but when I heard his voice, my eyes swang open.
“Good morning,” he greeted with a naughty smile on his lips while his hand and fingers are busy on my between. “Do you like my morning surprised?”
I surpassed my upcoming moan when he thrust faster and before I could cum in his fingers, I forced myself to jumped off the bed and headed straight to the bathroom even though it f*cking hurt me. Dang, it! I didn’t explode! But for the sake of my poor heart, I have to do it. I won’t let him take advantage of me again. When I stepped out, Logan shoot me with his glares while creasing his forehead.
“Why did you leave?” he asked the question I badly want to throw him back.
Why did you leave me yesterday, Logan?!
“I… I wanted to pee,” I told casually, putting my robe on and tying up my hair into buns afterward.
“Come back here,” he ordered, making me stop for a while. “Let me make you cum.”
“No need.” I smiled. “I’m already hungry, I’ll just prepare our breakfast.” And then I stepped out of the room, clutching on the lace of the robe as I climbed down the stairs.
That’s it, Alice… you’re doing great. Protect your heart from him at all costs. Prove to yourself that you won’t be such a fool when it comes to him again.
And that’s what I have done and continue to do until we went back to the city. We only spend three days at his beach house and decided to go back home and it’s been three weeks since something happened to us. It didn’t happen again in the rest of our stay there. I remained hard from the temptation. Just like what I have promised to myself, I won’t let Logan fool me again. And thankfully, seems like Logan wasn’t aware of what is really going on inside my mind. I won’t let him know either if that means I have to continue the acting.
But while I do my best in acting around him, something happened the next Saturday morning. With his arms still wrapped around my waist early in the morning, I pushed myself to the bathroom and puked up hard. Later on, Logan came inside and instantly checked me out.
“Are you okay?” he asked.
I was about to nod when I puked up again making me unable to create lies to answer him.
“I’ll call a doctor–”
“No!” I cut him off with a sudden rise in my voice which made him twitch a brow. “I mean, no need. I am okay now.” I lied even though I still felt weak because of my morning sickness.Copyright by Nôv/elDrama.Org.
Yeah, morning sickness.
When I didn’t have my period that was supposedly on Tuesday, I already think of what is probably going on. I even go to Helena’s apartment yesterday so I can take a pregnancy test and guess what? It just shows two lines which means I am pregnant. At first, I don’t know how to react just like how I felt when I am still pregnant with Aisle. I don’t even know if I have to te it to Logan because he is the father of course. But later on, I decided not to tell him yet unless the line between us is all clear.
“Are you sure you don’t want to go for a doctor’s appointment?” Logan asked while eating our breakfast.
“I told you, I am fine now,” I hissed. This is the problem also. I became so moody for the past few days and I am afraid that he might find out about my pregnancy.
“Why do you need a doctor, Mommy?” Aisle suddenly asked while we are in the car, heading to her Grandma because she told us that she wanted to be there for a night. “Are you sick?”
“No, baby. Your Daddy is just overreacting.” Logan glared at me which I just answer with my eyes, rolling out on him. After several minutes in the road, we already reached the Ivanov mansion and left Aisle there for a while, and headed back home.
“Where are you going?” Logan asked, currently blocking the door.
“I’ll meet Helena today.”
“But you just meet yesterday. Today is Saturday, Alice… it means today is our alone time.”
“Didn’t you tell me that you will go to the site today?” I arched a brow. “Go to the site and I’ll go to meet my friend. So can you please move a bit and let me pass?” He didn’t move even a bit making me lose my temper. “Logan, I said move out!” I irritatedly brushed my fingers into my hair.
“Call Helena and told her that you canceled your meet-up. For goodness’ sake, this is our alone time Alice. Don’t you dare avoid me again?”
I gulped. So… so, he knew that I am avoiding him?
“I am not avoiding you, Logan. Come on, I’ll be late–”
“Call Helena now and stayed here. You will not be going out. We will have a date instead,” he cut.
I threw my bag on the bed drastically as I marched back into the closet to change my clothes. “Happy now?” I sarcastically asked after I’d changed my clothes with him watching me.
“I’ve noticed something while you’re naked,” he commented which made me frown.
“And what were your dirty eyes noticed?”
“Did I just notice that you gained weight or not? And your tummy, it was flat before but you have now a cute belly.” He laughed.
I threw off guard and swallowed the lump in my throat. Damn it! That wasn’t a belly! It was your second child, idiot!