Pleasure Unbound

What a great way to start off the New Year! (Said no one ever.) I groveled to my older brother, who hadn’t really been speaking much to me since I’d been tossed out of their home for having cunnilingus on their kitchen countertop. I now had the ultimate pleasure of asking him for temporary refuge, explaining I would fill him in on the details later.

I’d have to create some plausible reason other than the truth, or I’d be tossed out once again, I was sure.

I obviously couldn’t ask Easton because of Darcy’s close relationship with Eli. She’d have it all figured out in a nanosecond.

I mean, hopefully my application for a full-time position with the F. B. I. would be approved and I’d receive a salary that could sustain my livelihood, but I was fully prepared that, if that didn’t happen, then maybe it was just a sign that it was time for me to move on.

I pulled into our driveway and breathed a sigh of relief. Cain’s car was gone, and as soon as I hit the remote for the garage, I saw that Eli’s was gone as well.

I grabbed several empty boxes from the garage and headed into the house with them. I was determined to work quickly and efficiently to clear out my closet and dresser drawers before either of them returned. I figured I had a couple of hours, minimum.

I emptied my closet and took those boxes out and put them in the trunk of my car. I grabbed a couple of more empty ones and headed back to pack up my dresser drawers.

I was just finishing up when I heard the slam of the front door, and footsteps coming down the hall.

Fuck.

My bedroom door was open, which was probably fortunate, because I would’ve hated to see the damage done had it been closed and locked.

Eli came in, his light blue eyes flashing with something akin to anger mixed with pain.

“So, this is what you’re about?” he growled, his hands on his hips, glaring at me.

“Wh-What?” I croaked in confusion. “How did-?”

“How did I know?” he asked, eyes flashing. “You forget that Lindsey and Darcy talk almost hourly. She shared with Darce that you were to be a temporary houseguest. Wasn’t all that hard to figure out you were bailing on us.”

I shook my head, looking down at the floor.

Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!

“Answer my question, Paige. You were just gonna leave us like that?”

“Eli,” I said with a sigh, sitting down on my bed. “Calm down, okay?

This is for the best. I can’t even look at you because…of…”

“Of what?” he growled, flexing his hands at his sides as if he wanted to punch something…or someone.

Fuck. He’s furious.

“Because of what I did…with Cain. And don’t you dare tell me that you’re fine with it because I don’t fucking believe that.”

He grabbed me by the arm, pulling me roughly to my feet. I was standing within inches of him, and I could feel the heat of his anger envelope me.

“You love Maddox,” he said, his words very distinct. “And you love me, too. You think I don’t know that?”

“I know that you do, but it’s different.”

“Hell yeah, it’s different,” he growled. “I fucking love you, Paige, and yeah, it’s different than the way that I love Maddox, but that doesn’t make it inconsequential now, does it?”

His hands were locked around my wrists, forcing me to look at him.

“I don’t understand,” I replied, honestly.

“Baby,” he sighed. “You are trying to compartmentalize this situation. It’s not black and white; it’s not right or wrong. It’s not even fifty-fifty because everyone’s different, just as everyone’s needs are different.”

He relaxed his grip on me a bit, and pulled me down next to him as he sat down on my bed.

“I knew from the time that I was in junior high school that I was attracted to both sexes, but it’s not like you think-like most people think. I’m attracted to the individual first; the gender is secondary to that. People automatically assume that bisexuals are simply people who want both genders sexually and cannot be monogamous to either. That’s just not true.”Content rights by NôvelDr//ama.Org.

“So then why did Cain refer to you being a ‘closet’ bisexual? I mean, that suggests that you have an overall preference…to the male gender.”

He nodded his head, and clasped his hands together under his chin, taking a moment.

“I’m not sure what all Maddox told you,” he said, and I realized I probably shouldn’t have blurted out what I had. “But the truth is that I fell in love with an exchange student from Sweden my senior year of high school. Her name was Greta. I’d prefer not going into the details with you right now, but suffice it to say, I was in love with her. She hurt me deeply, and after that, I made a conscious choice to focus on the male gender only for future relationships. It worked out well until I met…Darcy.”

What?

“What?” I gasped. I felt my eyes widen in surprise.

He nodded, his eyes caressing my face and I could tell this just might be the first time that he’d shared this with anyone.

“It’s true,” he said, wistfully. “I didn’t set out for that to happen, but I kinda fell in love with her. And, I mean, it was the hardest thing that I’ve ever had to control,” he said with a laugh. “But, control it I did because the simple truth was that I had no faith in my ability to sustain a relationship with a female…after Greta, that is.”

“But Eli,” I said, taking his hand, “You mean that Darcy never knew?”

“That’s right,” he said, “Oh hell, I knew the morning after she’d first slept with Easton that she was gone. And that was fine because the beautiful thing was that I had met Maddox that same night. I knew that Darce would always be in my life, and I’m satisfied with that. Just like I know that Maddox will always be in my life. But you,” he said solemnly, “You, I’m not sure of and I don’t want to lose you because of my fear that I can’t sustain a relationship with another female…after Greta.”

I swallowed nervously. This was all new information for me. I never suspected that Eli had been drawn to me in that way…at all. I just knew that, at this moment in time, he had opened himself up to me in a way that even Cain had never done, and that made me love him so much differently.

“Oh my God,” I breathed, turning to face him. “All of this time, I’ve loved you because I saw how much you loved Cain. So much, that you were willing to share him with me because of that love for him. And… you know, Cain tried to tell me that it was different than that, but I swear to God, Eli, you’ve never acted on…any sort of attraction towards me, I mean…”

He interrupted, pulling me closer to him on the bed. “Baby,” he said softly. “It’s because I see that chemistry going back and forth between you and Maddox…and, I guess I’m just not sure if there’s enough of that same chemistry-in you-left over for me. Because I know that there’s plenty in me left for you-if you want it, I mean.”

And I think he might’ve just blushed right then, like a guy that was wearing his heart on his sleeve-just putting it right out there and so worried that it might not be enough.

But it was enough.

It was more than enough.

“Oh Eli,” I sighed, “I can’t believe you’ve told me all of this, but I am so fucking glad that you have.”

Our eyes met and locked. In that moment, everything that Cain had assured me of since we’d given in to our feelings was coming true.

I leaned over and brushed my lips softly against his, waiting for him to snake his arms around me and pull me against him.

I didn’t wait long until that was exactly what he did.

We kissed and it was unfamiliar, but it was sweet. And every second, it became sweeter. I felt myself warm to his touch; my belly tingled with anticipation of where he might touch me next and I wanted him to touch me in different places.

He turned and pulled me into his lap, his fingers tilted my chin back so that his eyes could study mine and I saw the warmth fill them.

“God, baby. We’re going to do this.”

He lifted me up into his strong arms, carried me to their room, and gently deposited me on their bed. The same bed that I had shared with Cain, I was now going to share with Eli and I wanted it. I wanted it more than I thought I ever could.

“Get undressed,” he ordered, “We’ll do the sensual shit another time, but for right this second, I need to be inside of you and claim you as mine, too.”

God, his words made me wet and yeah, that surprised the hell out of me as well. I scrambled to do as he ordered, shedding my clothes quickly; leaving my thong on so that he would be the one to relieve me of it when it was time…

He was standing there naked and he was every bit as beautiful as Cain. His body was well-muscled and his belly flat. He had a lighter complexion than Cain, but God he was beautiful in a “golden-boy” sort of way. I felt myself getting wet just in anticipation of what would happen next.

He opened the bedside table drawer, and pulled out a handful of condoms.

Holy shit.

He pushed me back against the pillows on the bed, his eyes taking in all of my nakedness with a hunger. He straddled me with his strong, muscular thighs, leaning forward to capture my lips with his.