Planned Baby

Chapter 64 ALONE TIME

I woke up with a heavy heart. I look at myself in the mirror. My eyes were swollen from crying all night.

I still can't believe that this is all happening. I can’t believe the person I entrusted my heart to broke it again for the second time. I regret meeting him.

My phone rang. It's the phone we gave to the twins.

“Hello?”

“Mommy! Where are you? Why are you not staying in the house? Are you with dad?” Amelia asked

My eyes started to well up again. “I... I was at your grandparents’ mausoleum. I dream of them and they said that they miss me. So I might stay here for a while.

“What will happen to us then? Dad is still in the hospital. And you are staying at grandma and grandpa’s mausoleum.” Amelia asked. Her voice sounds so sad.

I bit my lower lips. I’m sorry my children. I can't meet you right now. I’m feeling devastated and I might not be able to hide it in front of you. I may hate your dad but I don't want you guys to know what happened in the past. I don't want to pass this burden on you. Just give mommy time to heal. A time to recover. A time to be brave again to move forward.

“I will ask your Auntie Kaela to pick you up. You will stay in Escarrer’s mansion for the time being.” I said instead. “Okay, mom. But I hope you will come home soon. We miss you and dad. We love you!” “I love you two, my children!” I said then I end the call.

I started to sob again. My heart feels so heavy. If I were to choose, I wanted to leave this world and be with my parents because I miss them so much. But my children are the ones stopping me from doing it.

My children are my new life now. If there is one thing I don’t regret meeting Ulie, it's my children. I will never regret having Amelia and Alistair in my life. They are my joy and my strength to move forward

I'm sorry kids if I can’t be with you right now. Just give me this time. I will make it up to you.

I asked for three days vacation leave in the office. I know I wan't be able to work properly because of what I am going through right now. Three days have past and I need to face the reality.

“You look sick!" Luna commented as soon as she saw me.

She followed me in my office just to say that.

“Hey, are you okay? Do you want to share something? Or hug to make you feel better?” Luna offered.

I look at her and my eyes started to well up. “I really need a hug right now.”

Luna went to me and gave me a warm hug. I hug her back and I lost it. I cried like there’s no tomorrow.

I badly need someone to comfort me because I feel like I am already on my limit.

“Hush now Ellie. I heard that Ulie will be discharged tomorrow. He will be alright.” Luna said to comfort me.

‘I don’t care about him!” I hissed.

Luna broke from our hug and frowned. “What are you saying? Isn't he the reason why you are crying this hard?” I rolled my eyes. “Why will I cry for that guy?! He is a murderer!”

“W-what? What are you saying, Ellie?

My eyes widen from the realization of what I just spoke. Luna looks at me intently.

“What do you mean by the murderer? Why did you call Ulysses a murderer? What the hell happened?” Luna said in a cold voice. I sighed aloud. I had no choice but to share the truth with Luna. I trust her. I know she can keep a secret.

I told Luna everything that Ulie told me. From the time I left him and transferred to another school to the accident. I also told her what favor my parents asked Ulie.

“What a twist. Are you sure?” Luna asks still not able to believe what I just said

“Yes. Do you think Ulie will make himself a murderer if it wasn’t true?!” I hissed

‘I'm sorry Ellie. It's just so hard to believe. Also, Ulie has a problem with his memories. It might not be the truth, I mean it might be just his hallucination or something.

Luna was still hopeful that Ulie was just hallucinating. I also wish that he was just hallucinating. But no, I am done fooling myself because of him. ‘I already confirmed it with Quen."

“Oh, the all-knowing friend of Ulie. What did he tell you? I heard that he was the only person who knew about Ulie’s lost memories. He is reliable.” Luna said while her shoulder dropped.

Flashback

“Ellie! Why are you-” Quen wasn't able to finish what he is about to say when he saw tearing falling my eyes.

I just went out of Ulie's room when Quen saw me

“What is wrong? What happened?” Quen asked with full concern.

“Is this what you are hiding from all of us?” I asked him.

“Huh? What do you-” His eyes widen when he finally realizes what I mean to say.

I nodded at him. “Yes, Ulie finally remembers everything. How dare you hide this truth from me?!” I said in full rage.

This guy knew everything from the start. He intentionally let Ulie not remember what he did. He surely is a great friend!

“I didn’t mean to hide it from you. I was just-" Quen was not able to finish his answer because I cut him off. I don’t want to hear his bullshit answer.

“Oh, you shut up! Do you think I will listen to your bullshit explanation? And what did you say? You didn’t mean to hide it from us? You will never fool me anymore.” I hissed.

He always thinks about Ulie, not me. He doesn’t care about even a bit! ‘I’m telling the truth, Ellie. I just hide the truth from everyone because I'm afraid Ulie will try to kill himself again.” Quen tried his best to convince me.

You still let me fall in love with the person who killed my parents! I will never forgive you!

‘I don't care! All I know is that I deserve to know this truth. And you hide it fromeveryone so that Ulie can live bidlife peacefully which he didn’ deserve! He should never. > forgetwhat he did to my parents. He shold not forget that he is a rourderer! And you are his accomplice!” I said then fbump his shoulder as I leave the hospital.

End of flashback.

“I still can’t believe that this is all happening. I feel like I'm watching a TV drama right now. Don’t you have any plans to return to your house? I’m sure the kids miss you.”

I heaved a sigh. It's been a week since I starter living at my parents’ mausoleum. I know that regardless of my situation, I should be a mother to my children. But I really can't do it right now,

Also, Ulie is living in my penthouse right now. He was discharged from the hospital days ago. He was the one taking care of the kids. I let myself be drowned with work. I want to be busy as long as I could, in that way I will forget all the pain I have right now even if it's just temporary.

I miss my children so much and I really feel sorry for them. I know I was not able to fulfill my duty to them as their mother. But I hope that they will understand.

I was so engrossed with my work when my intercom rang.

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“Ellie, Hmmm, U-Ulysses is here to t-talk to you. Should I let him in?” Luna carefully asked.

I furrowed. What is he doing here? How dare he come to my parents' company?!

“Tell him to get out!” I said coldly at Luna.

“Ellie.”

It was the murderer! My heartbeat was faster but this time because of rage! I don't want to see him nor listen to his voice.

I was about to hang up when he started to talk

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“I love you but I know I am the last person to deserve your love. Like what you said, I'm a m-murderer...” Ulie’s voice broke.

Listening to his voice broke my heart even more. Because no matter how hard I try to deny it, I love this guy who killed my parents. And that is what made it worst!

“The kids miss you so much. They want to be with their mom.”

What he just said brought tears to my eyes. My babies. I'm so sorry for going this thru.

“You should cpme home now. I will leave the perithouse. I don't belong there anymare. I never belong therée> to begin with. I shouldn't have foreed myselfinto your life. You will net feel this worst if you didn’t meet me again. "> 6

I closed my eyes as I listen to his voice.

“Come back home. The kids are waiting for you.”