Planned Baby

Chapter 61 PAST

I feel so empty.

Without My Quinn, my life is so empty.

Why did I say those things to her? Why did I hurt my Quinn?

It’s been a week since the new semester started. I thought that during the semester break, I was successful in fooling myself that I did the right decision.

But who am I kidding? I was afraid to lose her that is why I told her that I only see her as a friend. I want us to last that is why I want us to remain as friends. And now, I lost her forever.

Can I really carry on my life without her?

“Call her,” Quen said when I call him on the phone and told him about what happened.

Quen is my only best friend. I always tell him everything that is happening to me here in the country. This belongs © NôvelDra/ma.Org.

Quen was in America to study. My sister is with him. My sister chose to study in the same university as him because she likes him. But my best friend only saw her as a friend, and he was in love with someone else.

“She will probably ignore my call,” I told Quen.

“Then go to her place. You know where he lives right?”

I nodded even though he can’t see me. “Yes.”

“There’s no problem them. Go to her place and apologize. Confess your real feelings for her then propose to her.” Quen said like it was so easy to do.

I hurt him big time. It won’t be easy for her to believe me. I am scared that he might reject me after I confess everything to her because of what I did to her. For sure she hates me to death now.

In the end, I find myself dialing my Quinn’s number. My forehead creased when I was not able to reach her number.

Did she block me? Or did she change her number?

I started to get panic. But then I remember Quen’s advice. I hurriedly went to my car and started to drive to my Quinn’s house. I feel like if I don’t go to her now, I will really lose her completely. And I will never let that happen.

My shoulder fell when I found out that my Quinn and her family had already moved out. She really hates me. My Quinn hates me. What am I going to do now?

I went last week to the university she was supposed to transfer to and I found out that she cancel her transfer there.

I was so lost for the past months. I didn't know what to do. All I know is, my Quinn doesn’t want me in her life anymore. She completely cut me in her life. I don't have any means to reach her. She hates me that much, to the point that she made sure that I will not be able to locate her.

The semester ended and I still can’t find my Quinn.

Where are you now my Quinn? I miss you so much. Please, come back to me. I will accept any punishment you want to give me but don’t disappear from my life forever. I don’t think I can survive in this life without you.

In desperation of finding my Quinn, I hire a private investigator to look for her when the new semester started. And I know that I made the right decision because he was able to find my Quinn in just a month.

When I finally found out where he chose to study, I immediately went to her university to look for her.

I saw my Quinn coming out from her university with a group of people. It might be her classmates or friends. Most of them were boys. I felt jealous when I saw a guy approaching her, making her laugh.

They went to what the student called “walls of Intramuros” to eat. I saw how close she is to that guy.

My heart started to harden. I am not ready yet to see her with another guy. Why the hell did I think that I want us to be just friends?! I can’t bear to see her being close to another guy.

Maybe I was not able to realize it before because I was the only guy she was close with. But seeing her now, I know that my choices before were full of rubbish and stupid decision.

I decided to just go home. I don’t think I have the strength to face her.

The next day, I decided to go to my Quinn’s house. I got the address from my investigator.

Their new house has the same feel as their previous house. Maybe this is the kind of style that her parents prefer. I also found out that this house is one of their property. This is one of the first properties they both when their business started to grow.

I saw my Quinn with her parents taking a walk. She looks happy and contented with her life right now. It seems like I don’t have a place with her anymore.

It was different from what I was going through in past semesters. How can she be this happy while I feel miserable when I lost her?

Is her love for me is not strong compared to mine that is why she can move on just like that?

Does she really love me?

I don't know why, but I found myself following them. I don't see any sadness in her eyes. It was full of happiness and contentment.

I find my tears pouring. I know it sounds so shallow but I am really hurt by the fact that she can easily move on in her life.

I know that I should be happy for her because regardless of what I did to her, she was able to move forward but I am not.

In the back of my mind, I want to see her a bit sad because I was not in her life anymore. I want to longingness in he eyes but I found none.

I was about to go back to my pad when I saw them entering their house when someone called me.

“Ulysses?”

I froze. It was a woman’s voice but I know it's not my Quinn. I slowly turn around to face the person who called me.

“Auntie, good evening.” I greeted her.

Auntie Penny smile at me and went near me.

“How are you, Ulysses?”

I lower my head and started to sob. “I am not okay. I made the wrong decision and I regret it so much!”

Auntie Penny went to me and comfort me. She then asks me to walk with her in the park near their house.

I started to confess to her everything that happened. The wrong decision I made hurt her daughter and how I regret what I did to her.

“I feel so empty and lost when she suddenly disappear from my life. I did everything to find her but I was a bit disappointed when I saw how happy she is with her life right now even without me in it. She was easily able to move on from her love for me.” I honestly told her.

Auntie Penny shook her head. “You got it all wrong. She was devastated when you told her that you only see her as a friend. She loves you so much and she made herself believe that you feel the same with her. But when she found out that you were not on the same page, she hurt, big time.”

“It took her months of crying every night before she finally decided to forget you and move on in her life.” Auntie Penny added.

“She may look happy on the outside but when she was alone, that is where she removes her mask.”

I was hurt hearing all the things that my Quinn went through because of my denial. But I am not fooling myself that I feel a bit happy when I heard that she was still sad. It only means one thing, that she was still in love with me.

“Auntie please allow me to talk Quinn. Allow me to confess my true feelings to her.” I said to Auntie Penny with full of hopes.

Auntie Penny look at me intently which made me feel so nervous. “Have you heard about the seasons of life?”

My forehead creased. “I haven't heard about that.”

“In life, there are three seasons. Season to learn, season to earn, and season to get married.” Auntie started her speech.

“Season of learning is when you started to learn things to achieve your dreams, which is now. You are studying or taking up your chosen course to be able to achieve your dream.”

“Season of earning is when you started to make your dreams come true. And when you finally achieve success in your career or goal then you are ready for the next season which is to get married.”

“Why are you telling me all this Auntie?” I asked a bit confused.

“I am telling you this because I want you to realize that season of learning is very crucial. I want you and Penelope to focus on your current season, which is learning. Love can wait. And if you really meant for each other then you will end up together. Trust God and trust his timing.”

I chose to follow what Auntie told me. I gave this time to my Quinn for her to focus on her study. I also did the same.

Years later, my Quinn is done with her degree. I am planning to propose to her now. I want to ask her to be my girlfriend.

Auntie Penny is the one who assured me that my Quinn is not seeing anyone. Which only means that I was still in her heart. That made me so hopeful of our future together.

My Quinn’s graduation came. I was so excited to finally see her. I was driving when I saw the light turn yellow. I know that I should stop my car because it will turn red very soon. But I was already late. So I continued driving. I was in the middle when the traffic light turns to red. I didn’t see the car coming.

I woke up in a very familiar place. I know where I am right now. I am trying to remember what happened, then I remember the car accident.

“Ulysses! I’m glad you are finally awake.” My mom said while sobbing.

I look at the people around me. Aside from my mom, I saw my dad, Kaela, and Quen in the room.

“I am fine. Don’t worry about me.”

“How can we not worry about you? You were in a coma for three months!!!” Kayla shouted then she started crying.

I frowned. What?! Then what happened to my Quinn’s graduation?

“Where are you going?” My mom started to panic when she saw me trying to move out of my bed.

“I need to go somewhere. I need to see someone.” I told them.

“If you want to know what happened to the people you crash your car with then I will just tell you. Stop moving and take a rest.” My mom said.

I was taken aback. I almost forgot about them.

“What happened to them? Are they okay? Or are they also in a coma just like me?” I asked worriedly.

They all lower their head with made my forehead crease.

“They died. They are already dead on arrival in the hospital.” My mom said in a whisper but enough for me to hear.

I was speechless. I can’t utter anything after that.

After a week, I already got the courage to ask them more about the people that died during the accident.”

“They are a married couple. They were about to go to their daughter’s graduation but couldn’t make it because of the accident.” My mom shared.

What did I do? Because of my, that person lost his or her parents.

“Can I know their names?” I asked because I wanted to visit their grave and to apologize and offer help to their child.

I know that it will be enough. But I want to support their child as long as I could.

“Their name is Pierce and Penny Quinlyn Cabello.”