One More Chance

Two weeks...

It has been two weeks since Luke came to talk to me and it has also been two weeks since I started to wonder where he is now. I wonder how he resolves the mess and what he plans to do to resolve it.

I missed him, but it was so hard to give your trust again after how many times it has been broken and you felt disappointed. Many people will tell you if you love someone, you should accept them for who they are and should love all their flaws... weaknesses... imperfections.

Yes, I love him but the question is not how much I love him or how much love I can give him, but how many times should I have to be broken just to be with him?

My mind and heart were simultaneously yelling at me to stop and go on at the same time. While my mind kept screaming at me to stop as the same thing always happen over and over again... I'll forgive him now, but he will do it again on the next day, my heart kept knawing me to hold on and give him another chance.

Somehow I realized how tiring it was, how emotionally, physically, and mentally draining our situation and relationship at the moment, and wonder if we could still have a happy ending after all this.

"Whew!"

I closed my eyes as I sighed and leaned back against the metal bench. I decided to get out of my suffocating room and ran to the park to get some fresh air and lose myself a bit.

I was in that situation when suddenly I felt the sun was blocked in front of me or should I say there was someone who intentionally blocked it. I frowned and opened my eyes ready to snap at whoever that someone was only to be surprised when I saw a very familiar man standing in front of me.

A smile curled up against my lips as I immediately recognized him.

"David!" I exclaimed, straightening my seat as I stared at him.

"Sam," he greeted back with a smile.

"Oh, my--- how are you?" I asked him, couldn't contain the emotions flowing through my heart at the moment.

"I should ask you the same. Uhm... may I?"

"Sure!" I nodded with a smile as he referred to the empty space next to me.

And in that short moment, as I waited for him to sit down, I got the chance to study what had changed in him.

"Well, I'm fine," I replied, "How about you? How long has it been since... you know?"

"Hmm... more than two years I guess," He shrugged. "And I'm getting married,"

"Whoa!" my head automatically snapped in his direction upon hearing those words. He even showed me the ring on his finger which made me gasp in surprise. "Wow! Congratulations, David, I'm happy for you!"

If you're asking me if I really feel happy knowing he would be tied now to another woman, well, the answer is yes. I'm happy for him as he finally found the one who is truly meant for him... someone who would love him and be next to him in sickness and in health. I have no regrets or bitterness towards the idea because it's been a long time since I realized he wasn't for me, neither was I for him...we weren't for each other.

"Thanks, Sam,"

I even witnessed the spark in his eyes as he stared at the ring on his finger.

"So, who is the lucky girl? Do I know her?"

"I guess not, I don't think you know her. She's my new assistant,"

"Ohh... so you got a new assistant," I slowly nodded.

"Yeah, she has been working with me at the hospital for almost a year when I realized my feelings for her."

"Wow! I don't know how to describe my happiness right now to see you smiling like that and finally found the one." His grin widened as he shrugged.

"By the way, what are you doing here in LA? Are you on a vacation or something?"

"No, I'm not here for a vacation, I'm here to attend a seminar,"

"Hmm... I see,"

"How about you? Why are you here at the park alone? Where is Cali? I'm sure she's all grown up now,"

"Yeah and guess what, she already knows what the word crush means!" I chuckled, rolling my eyes.

"Oh, yeah?" he chuckled at the same time.

But then silence stretched between us after a few seconds.

"So, how are you, Sam? Why are you sitting here alone?" he asked seriously, breaking the silence and emphasizing the last word.

A sigh escaped my lips before answering him.novelbin

"Well, escaping the reality and hiding from the confusion that bothers me," I replied with a shrug.

"Whoa! Your words are---"

"Too deep?" I interrupted him and continued what he was about to say.

"Yeah, kinda," he stared at me. "Is it about Luke, your ex-husband?"

I nodded.

"Why, what happened?"

I bit my lip as I looked at him with a bit of embarrassment.

"I'm sorry if I'm getting nosy, it's okay if you can't tell me,"

"Nope, you're not it's just that..." I paused, reading his expression. "Wouldn't be awkward to tell you my personal problems because you know---"

"Of course, not! Sam, it's fine with me, besides, we somehow became friends back then, right?"

A smile formed on my lips as I nodded at him.

"Yes, of course!"

"You can trust me,"

"Well... Uhm... how do I start this? Uhm..."

And right then and there, I started telling him what happened in the last two years, and in my relationship with Luke that we ended up grabbing some snacks and a cup of coffee from the nearest cafe.

"You don't have to be confused," he said soon after we went back and sat down on the same bench we sat on earlier.

"Why do you think so?" I asked as I sipped my coffee.

"Because I believe he loves you. He loves you and he's ready to prove that what happened while he was away was all lies."

"But..."

"I don't blame you for feeling that way, Sam because I believe I would feel the same way if I were in your situation. I'm sure I'll also think that maybe he really is cheating again because he's done it before and it's not surprising that he might do it again now but..." He paused, emphasizing the word 'but' in the end.

"But based on what you said, he would do anything to prove to you that those weren't real and that he would be next to you whether you liked it or not... even if you wanted him away, he would stay. And maybe that's one reason enough to keep your relationship going and give him another chance. Also, you said you've known him almost half your life, so why not give him the benefit of the doubt?"

I bit my lower lip as I let out another sigh and then looked at him with a smile.

"Who would have thought that after all these years and after what happened between us, we will meet again and be able to talk like this?"

"Yeah, I agree, but that's life," he shrugged.

"Uhuh, that's life and its surprises,"

And we continued to talk and share experiences for the past two years as if nothing had happened between us and like we were really meant to meet today. There's so much that has changed but that same feeling that I get while talking to him... the one without awkwardness and feeling at ease, that's what hasn't changed.