Once, my paranoid love

Ron, I think I am not ready yet



We were sitting in front of the TV. I finally spoke up after a while. “Are you done, Eva? Is it time for us to go to our rooms?”

“Please, Elena,” Eva said angrily. I knew what was going on with her, and why she was acting this way. It was because of that incident that Eva might have misunderstood us.

“Elena, you look to be exhausted. You can rest assured that Eva will be there soon,” Ron added suddenly. I smiled broadly, but somehow I did not want to leave Eva with Ron because I could not trust him fully. But Eva! She seemed angry with me, so I thought if I gave her some time, she would be okay with me. So I nodded and headed upstairs.

[After Elena left]

Eva and Ron were sitting on the couch, and both of them remained quiet.

‘It’s so awkward. I don’t think I should stay here. I can’t even face him, and seeing him makes my heart race.’ Eva nibbled her nails while thinking. Her heart appeared to be on the verge of exploding at any moment.

“Ron, I’m going to sleep,” Eva said after gathering her breath while facing him.

Eva was going to walk away when Ron unexpectedly grabbed her hand. He drew her close to him. She couldn’t keep her balance and fell on his chest. Eva quickly apologized, “I’m s-sorry.”

Eva’s face became red, and she quickly tried to stand up, but Ron held her arms.

“Don’t be sorry,” Ron said. After hearing Ron’s voice, Eva raised her gaze, and their gazes met. Eva’s heart started beating fast. But when she felt Ron’s cold fingers on her lips, her heart skipped a beat. His gentle touch made her close her eyes. But she opened her eyes as she felt Ron slide his other hand down her hip.

“What are you doing?” Eva asked, her voice shaking with nervousness.

Ron asked teasingly, “What am I doing, Eva?”

“I have to go, Ron.” Eva blushed as she looked down.

Ron said nothing, but after a minute, he came closer to her ear and whispered, “I think I have feelings for you, Eva.”

Eva suddenly felt goose bumps all over her body as his hot breath hit her ear. There were a few inches between their faces. They could both feel the warmth of each other’s breath. Eva pressed her lowered lips together. After hearing Ron’s confession, she became numb. She could not believe what she had heard. ‘Does he mean it?’ Eva thought.

Eva pushed him and stammered, “R-Ron.”

Ron lifted her chin and forced her to face him.

“Eva, I know I make you uncomfortable, but I think this is the best time to confess,” Ron said. Eva’s eyebrows narrowed lightly, and she became nervous to think about how she could react at that moment. She only assumed Ron liked her, but when Ron abruptly confessed to her, she lost the words to say about her feelings.

“I think I became rushed. I am sorry to make you uncomfortable, Eva. I thought you l-,” Ron moved his gaze to Eva, but didn’t complete his sentence. Eva’s eyes widened; it seemed she was eager to hear Ron. Ron lightly smiled and said, “Sorry, Eva, my conception was wrong; I thought you liked me.”

“No,” suddenly Eva spoke out.

“No?” Ron raised his eyebrows and kept his gaze locked on her. Eva narrowed her eyebrows and started stammering, “I… I… Actually, I like you too.”

**

Paul murmured, “Screw you, Ron.” He flung a brick at the house.

“Is he insane?” the maid wondered.

“Let me phone the police,” another maid said as she headed downstairs. She came upstairs after a bit and said, “They are on their way.”

“But, sister, what’s the matter with Sir’s friend?” One of them asked.

“I think they got into a fight,” another maid said.

One of them said, “Sister, he’s simply a maniac; we should call Ron sir.”

“You’re absolutely correct. Let me call him,” that maid said.

After a moment, the police arrived and took Paul with them.

**

“What?” Ron gave a surprised look. Eva lightly nodded as she lowered her gaze. A smirk appeared on Ron’s lips. He pushed Eva’s hair back from her shoulder and touched her cheek.

“Y… Yes. I was just afraid of confession.” Eva stammered.

Ron narrowed his eyes and asked with a puzzled look, “Why?”

“Because we are so different from each other. You are a famous model, lots of girls are dying to be your girlfriend, and here I am just nothing to compare them to. Why… Why do you like me?” Eva lowered her gaze. Her hands were shaking.

Ron grabbed her hands and told her to look at him.

“Look at me, Eva.”

Eva slowly moved her gaze toward Ron. He kissed Eva’s hand as he looked at her. Eva blushed when their eyes met. ‘I can’t believe that Ron is my boyfriend, and now I’m staying with him.’ Eva thought.

“Don’t be insecure, Eva. Now that you accept me as your boyfriend, I will manage everything.” Ron said.

“But…” Eva suddenly became worried, thinking, had she done the right thing by accepting Ron as her boyfriend? She should have talked to Elena. Ron’s words broke Eva’s train of thought.

“No buts…” As he said, he lifted Eva up and started walking upstairs. Seeing Ron take her upstairs, she spoke nervously, “Where are you taking me?”

Ron smiled and said, “Don’t be afraid, Eva.” Ron walked into his room and put Eva on the bed. Eva became nervous. She started thinking, what was going to happen next? Ron plopped down beside her and said, “Come here, Eva.”

Ron was asking her to join him. Eva was hesitating to lie beside him. Seeing her hesitation, Ron suddenly pulled her down and closed his arms around her. Eva remained on his chest like a statue.

Ron moved his fingers into her hair and started to stroke it.

“Eva,” he called out her name.

“Mm,” she answered with a sound.

“If I ask you to be my female model, will you work with me?” Ron’s sudden proposal made Eva a little surprised. She was shocked to think if she had heard him wrong.

“Me?” Eva asked.

“Yes.” Ron moved his gaze toward her while stroking her hair.

“But… How can I be? Am I worth it, Ron?” Eva asked. She had never wanted to be a model, but she had a dream of being a fashion designer.

“Yes, you can be, Eva. Why are you so insecure about everything, dear? I saw potential in you.”

Eva became silent after hearing him. When Ron noticed Eva was not giving him any kind of response, he said, “Then it’s okay. I won’t force you. I will tell the manager to look for someone else.”

“No…” Eva propped herself up with an elbow and faced Ron.

“I can try,” she said.

Ron smiled lightly and said, “Eva, you don’t have to force yourself.”

“No… I really want to be your model, Ron. Though my dream was not to be a model, I can be your model,” Eva said.

Ron curled his lips lightly and moved her hair from her forehead while saying, “Are you sure?”

Eva nodded with a smile. Ron touched Eva’s lips slowly, and they finally kissed each other. After a minute, their kiss went to the edge of the next level. Before it could break the verge, Eva stopped and looked at him while panting.

“Ron…”

“Yes…” His hot breath touched her face.

“Isn’t it happening too soon?” Eva asked.

“I don’t know, is it?” Ron responded, and he did not wait for her answers and went ahead, where Eva stopped. He started kissing Eva more deeply than before. He flipped over her. Eva’s body was shaking, but somehow her heart was urging her to stop. Eva took a deep breath, breaking the kiss, and moved her face a little back.Content rights by NôvelDr//ama.Org.

She said while panting, her lips turning red, “Ron, I think I am not ready yet.”

Ron inhaled, and after a minute, moved his body away from her. Eva sat on the bed slowly for a moment and thought she had disappointed Ron. ‘Did I ruin his mood?’ Eva thought, and when she was about to say something, but Ron said, “Thank you for making tonight great. I never expected you to love me back.”

“No, actually, it’s just me who had never expected it, Ron,” Eva immediately said, holding Ron’s hand. Ron smiled at Eva and asked, “Then what next? You are leaving me here alone.”

Eva blushed and said, “It’s just that I am not ready for it.”

Ron witnessed her blushing face, started chuckling, and said, “You are so cute, Eva.” Eva stood up and dashed out of the room after hearing Ron. She could not stand any more, which was too much for her to handle.

Ron moved his glance from the door, and suddenly, his smiley face changed. He stood up and moved the curtain from the window. The moon was so bright that Ron lit a cigarette and took it in. While exhaling the smoke, he murmured, “Stupid girl!”


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