My Emotionless Goddess

Uncle Butler watched as the young miss berated her boyfriend and the Man turned silent without argument. He Marvelled at how easily the man seemed to obey the young miss. Ofcourse, he knew that the young Miss was a person who didn’t like to be deferred. It seems like the boy was well behaved. ‘ good, good! A true man knows when to take a step back.” He rejoiced inwardly.

” Anyways Young Miss, go ahead and do what brought you here. I’ll go and see what to get you.” Butler’s uncle said and Miranda smiled at him. She didn’t try to persuade him not to because she was damn sure her efforts would be fruitless. Her old man will never listen to her especially when it comes to pampering her. After the butler Left, Miranda held Justin’s hand and led him in. He had brought with him a bouquet of flowers. They walked past countless tombs until they came to two graves opposite each other. ” Ann Lambert and Blake Lambert were engraved on the tombs with their pictures on each.

” Mom, dad. I brought someone to visit you today.” Miranda said facing the two tombs where her mother and father laid.

” How time flies? I remember I was Just ten when you two left me but now am all grown up, I even have a fiancee now. Do you miss me as much as I Miss you?” She said and by now she was breaking down. Miranda might be cold and heartless but that was to the world. Regardless of who she was now, she is still Human and humans are bound to have emotions and feelings. Right now, she was longing for her parents’ presence in her Life but she knew that was impossible so the pain and anguish. Every Time she visits them, age would end up breaking down and crying her heart out. Age would voice her grievances and wishes but today she controlled herself. She didn’t want to show Justin this vulnerable side of her. What she didn’t know was that Justin was just as observant as her. He had already noticed her trying to hold in her true feelings.

Justin walked to her side and knelt down just as Miranda was doing. He then pulled her to his arms and started rubbing her back saying,” let it all out Miranda. There’s no need to hold back when you are with me. After you cry it out you’ll feel better. Crying is not a sign of weakness, it’s a confirmation that we are still human with feelings and a heart to feel pain.” His words were all it took for Miranda to completely break down to tears. Her cry earlier was restricted but now, she let it all out. She cried thinking of her birthdays that she no longer celebrated after the death of her parents. She cried lamenting the lack of parental care as she grew up. She cried to dissolve the pain of having an incomplete family. She cried for missing her parents hugs and kisses. She cried longing for the ‘ I love yous’ her parents always told her. She cried to lament the unjust Fate bestowed to her. She cried thinking of the days she’ll wish her parents were still here to help her solve problems and advise her. She cried questioning the heavens why they had to take her parents at such an early age. She cried for having cried many times in the past and the many times she’ll cry in the future. The void Left by her parents still remained unfilled in her heart. It didn’t help that she had to be trained for a mission while still mourning her parents death.

Justin, who had embraced Miranda as she poured her heart out, couldn’t control the lone tear that slipped from his eye. It pained him alot to see her breaking down like this. He could feel his heart wrench in pain watching her heartbreaking cries. He couldn’t have imagined even in his wildest dreams that the ever emotionless Goddess in his life could show such strong emotions. He was glad that he was here with her but also regretted insisting they come visit gee parents. Maybe if he didn’t, she wouldn’t be crying her eyes out here.

” You know Justin, they left, leaving me here all by myself. I was Just but a small girl when they Left. My grandfather was the only family I had left but he was always busy running the company and other stuff. I knew at that time I had to toughen up and face reality. I had to engrave it in My heart and brain that they were no more. That I will never see my father give me a piggyback ride. I had to accept that I would never see nor taste my mother’s chocolate cakes. Life was never the same anymore after they left. I had to be trained as the next successor of the Lambert group. I had to be strong for my grandfather who was the only family I had left. Having to endure all this, I opted to remain oblivious to many things and harden my heart because I could no longer act soft. But even with everything, The pain is still there. It hurts to be lonely and with the whole world on your shoulders.” Miranda said.

” I had to learn to be independent and that nobody would come to my aid because I was nothing but an orphan.” She added and Justin couldn’t listen to her sad and depressed voice anymore.

” The past is gone now Miranda and now we have a future together. The pain will not go away immediately but I would love to request that you give me the chance to heal you. I will keep you company and you will not have to worry about loneliness anymore. I will share all your burdens and responsibilities, I will always be there anytime you need me Miranda. I don’t want to take your parents’ position in your heart, I just want a small space in your heart to settle down and make you happy and not feel lonely.”Nôvel/Dr(a)ma.Org - Content owner.