Mafia Desire (Erotica)

“OH MY GOD! Did he hurt you?” Trish said, looking for injuries.

“He threw me down against an end table. Bruised my back pretty badly. He was just getting started. He had a look in his eye. Then there was a pounding on the door. He went to see who it was, and Ben pushed his way in, picked me up from the floor, and sat me on the couch. Greg was mouthing off, and Ben said Greg looked like he should be smarter than he sounded. I laughed, and Greg went after Ben.”

“OH, GOD! Is Ben okay?”

Rochelle looked at the fear in Trish’s eyes and smiled.

“Ben put Greg down in one punch. Moved so fast I didn’t even see it. Crushed his nose and knocked out his teeth,” she grinned at Trish’s shocked expression. “You didn’t think he had it in him, did you? I know I didn’t! Our Gentle Ben has teeth!”

“Oooo, I wish I’d been there! Maybe it’s barbaric and old-fashioned to think this way, but there’s something about a man beating another man bloody to protect a woman that is so fucking hot!”

“Oh, I know! He got me pretty excited last night! Greg did pull a surprise and stabbed Ben in the calf with a switchblade, but Ben broke his wrist and three ribs in his back when he fell on Greg.”

“Ben was stabbed!” Trish shrieked.

“He’s okay! Spent the night in the hospital only because Hannah was overprotective, but he’s home now,” Rochelle assured her friend.

“Holy fuck! The convention was a total bust! All the action happened here!” Trish complained.

“I uh, did something bad last night,” Rochelle said hesitantly.

“There’s more?”

“I may have played with Ben’s penis in the ambulance with the female paramedic while he was partially unconscious. He wasn’t happy about it.”

“ROCHELLE!”

She winced. “I know. It was wrong. I was just so excited by how he rescued me that I got carried away, and I didn’t really consider his feelings. I apologized to him this morning, and Tina let me know that I was really disrespectful, and she was very upset with me. She can be a little frightening.”

Trish chuckled. “Yes, I’ve faced her wrath as well. Formidable little woman.”

“I also spoke with Gabriella, and she was pissed off with me too.”

“Ha! Then I barked at you! You’re just having the best day, aren’t you!” Trish grinned.

“Which brings me to the reason for my visit,” she said and paused to get her thoughts straight.

After the moment of silence stretched beyond her comfort zone, Trish interrupted. “Which would be?”

“I’m lonely… for male company. And I can’t trust myself to avoid creeps like Greg. My history proves that. Ben told me I’m worthy of being loved. Tina suggested I could be one of Ben’s friends with benefits if I got my head straight about what love was and told me to speak to Gabriella, which I did. She explicitly told me that if I were to consider opening my heart to Ben, I’d have to learn how to love unconditionally and lose my fear of betrayal.”

“Well, Ben is the one person you could absolutely trust to never betray you,” Trish agreed.

“Trish, he’s in love with three women. Four if we include you.”

“Don’t. I know how he feels about me. I’m not ready,” Trish scowled.

“He’ll wait.”

She smiled faintly though she remained uneasy. “I know.”

“Well, he’s in love with three women then. How can I reconcile my memories of Devon’s betrayals and my feelings of inadequacy when Ben is also sharing his love with more than just me?”

“That’s simple. Ben isn’t Devon. In any way. The only thing they had in common? Penises. I mean having one. I have no idea if Devon was as big as Ben is. That aside, Ben would never betray you. He would never make you feel inadequate. And you’ve got it wrong about Ben sharing his love amongst the three women. He gives all of his love to each woman. You may have to share his time, but you get all of his love. And he doesn’t stop loving you when you leave. I know. But Gabriella is right. I’ve seen what Ben goes through when he thinks he’s causing a woman emotional pain. I don’t ever want to see that again. So if you want him, you better fucking find the strength to throw off a lifetime of preconceived notions on how love works. Gabriella managed to do it and helped Catherine to learn. They seem happier than they’ve ever been. If I were to consider finding someone to love again, I think I could learn to love that way… but only for Ben. The risk for my heart is so much less with him.”

Rochelle looked at her friend’s fierce expression and realized Trish was right.

She was having a great day being chastised by her friends.

But the more defensive they got about Ben, the more intrigued she became.

“Gabriella suggested that if my feelings were more lust than love, I should speak with you about how you and Ben worked out the sexual part of your relationship, so it didn’t hurt him.”

Trish looked at her with an expression of shame. “When Ben is near me, I-I can’t help myself. He’s like… the biggest dose of the drug I need the most. We… haven’t worked out how to protect his feelings. That’s why he’s still hoping.”

“Oh.”

“Ben doesn’t do casual sex. It took Tina’s involvement to get Ben to accept my cousin.”

“WHAT?”

“Oh? I didn’t tell you? Shelly and I patched up our relationship, and we celebrated by re-enacting our threesome but with Ben. It was magic! But it wouldn’t have happened at all if Tina hadn’t convinced Ben to let it happen.”

“I thought Tina was the submissive one!” Rochelle gasped.

“Oh, she is! But when she wants to please her man, she can be very convincing. It was the sweetest seduction I’ve ever seen.” Trish smiled fondly as she recalled the moment.

Rochelle’s head was spinning. She had been hoping Trish would have an easy out for her. A way to experience sex with Ben, to at least get that desire out of her system so she could move on without exposing her battered heart and getting emotionally involved with a man. She had no experience with that. As good as Ben’s kiss had been, his… emotional presence had frightened her, and more than a little. She didn’t know how to relate to men that way. Truth be told, she didn’t really emotionally bond with anyone aside from her children, and she felt herself pulling away from Jayden as he became more like his father.

Maybe that was why she was so lonely all the time. She felt an ache in her heart as she recalled Gabriella’s description of her relationship with Ben. To know someone loved her, to have someone to hold and not be afraid of losing their love. She couldn’t imagine that last part, and there lay the source of her trouble. She couldn’t be with Ben if she couldn’t get past her fear and subsequent jealousy.

“Ok, I have some thinking to do. Thank you, Trish,” Rochelle said.

“Somehow, it doesn’t sound like I really helped,” Trish responded with a frown.

“Not what I was hoping for, but the truth, which in the long run, is better.” Rochelle gave her friend a hug and went home to think.This text is property of Nô/velD/rama.Org.