Madrid

Alana

As soon as I hung up the phone, a feeling of emptiness washed over me. I lied to Raúl, I didn’t tell him the real reason, and it’s eating me up. When I found him again I had no idea he could leave me like this, feel involved, make me feel so good. At first I didn’t really feel anything different for him, he was just Dani’s friend, who always liked me, and I didn’t realize it, until he was conquering space, and even knowing and feeling that, I still act like that stupid girl who I thought I liked the half brother. I spent the night lying in bed, thinking and feeling bad for not having spent the night with him. I know, I’m confused, too dreamy, and I ended up idealizing something that didn’t exist! Making love to Raúl was good, he caused me so many things that I never felt… Why didn’t I go to sleep with him? Now, I’m feeling like I should be with him.

I’m going to meet my friends, and I already know they’ll ask why I didn’t say what I wanted, and now I’m sorry. I feel bad, and I wonder who in their right mind would let a boyfriend like Raúl sleep alone, when he calls all sly asking to spend the night with him? Nobody, right?

wander through the Plaza Mayor looking for Edu and Babi who haven’t arrived yet. It’s late afternoon, but in Madrid it seems like it’s ten o’clock in the day, the sun is still intense. I walk among the pigeons, around the statue of Philip III, so imposing on his horse, unlike me that I feel so insecure. I’m so lost in my thoughts that I don’t notice my friends approaching, and I get a big shock when Edu screams right in my ear.

– Alanaaaaaaaaaaaa …..

– Damn Edu, what a scare!

– We called you and you didn’t listen!

We walk towards one of the restaurants, we sit down, Babi and Edu talk all the time, and I don’t participate, I remain distant. Edu looks at me with a raised eyebrow, a questioning air and I know that question is coming.

– What was Alana?

– Anything.

– Anything. I’ve never seen anyone with anything, and with that face of someone who got lost in the middle of the storm. – Edu asks.

– It is true! Tell me what happened…

– Okay, I ‘m feeling bad. Raúl called me yesterday, and asked me to sleep with him, and I said I couldn’t because of my mother, and now I’m sorry.

– Oh Alana, what we talked about didn’t help at all? You’re looking like those soap opera protagonists, who just like to complicate their own lives! – says Babi.

– I know, they can speak badly. I messed up, and now I’m feeling like a complete idiot, he’s going to Lyon and won’t be back until the day after tomorrow!

– And why don’t you go talk to him now? – Asks Babi.

– I can’t, he’s in concentration and should be boarding soon! I’ve been thinking about him so much, about everything that’s happened to me, and everything he’s given me, and I think I’m falling in love with him, in a way I’ve never felt for anyone.

– And have you ever said that to him? – Baby asks.

– Not. I never said what I really felt, just that I liked him, and…

– So it’s time for you to accept what you feel for him, stop being so afraid of life, and live that love, cariño ! – Edu speaks and looks at me with a smile.This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.

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The conversation was very fruitful. I left there with some certainty. I need to stop being so afraid of living. I want to be with Raúl completely, and most importantly, I’m in love with him, and I urgently need to declare myself. Ah, I can’t forget about the red lingerie either! This will make you crazy, according to Babi and Edu.

I tried calling during those two days, but I couldn’t get through to him, and I don’t know if he didn’t answer because he couldn’t at the moment, or because he didn’t want to. Anyway, I could only concentrate on watching him on TV, watching his team win, and seeing my defender shine beautifully. I wake up early. In fact, I could barely sleep, I thought about Raúl all the time, seeing him on TV, so beautiful, made me more in love. Upon arriving at her house, I am greeted by her mother, who tells me something incredible as soon as she opens the door.

– Hey Alana, good to see you! I’m so happy for my son…

– Me too, yesterday’s game was amazing, and he shone like never before, and…

– It’s not just that… Didn’t you know?

– What?

– He’s been called up for a friendly with France! – she says, and I marvel at the information.

– Seriously? My goodness, he must be very happy! He already arrived?

– Yes, it’s in your room!

I say goodbye and run up the stairs. I walk into the room, my breath is ragged, my heart is racing too fast, I look around the room but I don’t see him. I hear the sound of the shower, and I deduce he’s in the bath. I have a crazy urge to invade the bathroom and cling to him, but I hold back, I need to talk to him first. I walk around the room, aimlessly, until I hear the sound of the shower turning off, my heart races wildly, and the door opens. Oh Raul! That makes me crazy… Wrapped in a towel, his tattooed muscles showing, he wipes his hair, and a few drops fall down his naked torso, a shiver of pleasure takes over my body. He still hasn’t noticed my presence.

– Raúl… – I say, he looks in my direction, and smiles. That smile that makes my panties wet.

– Alana!

– Congratulations!

– Are you just gonna tell me that, and stand there looking at me? I don’t deserve a kiss?

Hearing his questioning, I approach with measured steps, slowly observing every detail of his tattooed chest, exposed for my pleasure. He really is a beautiful man, I’m very lucky. He pulls me, gluing his body next to mine, his mouth ardently takes possession of mine, I shudder with each thrust, because I know where we’ll get at this rate. I tangle my hand in his hair, and he squeezes my waist even tighter, it drives me crazy, but before we get deeper into our caresses, I need to talk to him, and expose what I’m feeling. I break the kiss, pull back a little to face him, and finally decide to say what I want.

– Forgive me…

– For what reason?

– For being such an idiot. For not staying with you the other night, and being so fearful, and… – The words don’t seem to want to come out, and Raúl is wonderful, encourages me to keep going.

– You can talk, I already told you that you can say anything to me!

– It wasn’t just for my mom and Dani, it was for me too! I didn’t have the courage to confess to you what I felt the night of my first time, I felt pain and thought that the whole situation would be like in the books… Painless, wonderful, perfect! Don’t get me wrong… I…

– I know it wasn’t perfect, this story that the first time is perfect is a tremendous lie! Mine, for example, was bad, I was nervous and ended up making a lot of confusion… It was terrible! He says, and I smile. I keep imagining Raúl in his first time all nervous, not knowing what to do, or how to act in front of someone. He smiles too, and we laugh together, and then continues. -The others will be better than the first, I guarantee it!

– You know what?

– No…

– It was this incredible way of yours that made me… fall in love with you. I’m completely in love with you, defender!

He listens carefully to what I say, and a beautiful smile forms on his lips. I look at him like a fool. It doesn’t take long for his smile to fade, and he stares at me with a gaze covered in desire fixed on my mouth in a very indecent way, it makes me breathless, nervousness takes over me. And before I can decide what to do, he takes me one more time. His lips devour mine, I feel delivered, I want to feel him more, the mint flavor that leaves his mouth invades me, leaving me wanting to explore every corner of her, and before he takes the initiative, I invade his mouth with my tongue that finds his, one of his hands grips my waist, and the other squeezes my ass, while mine tangles in his hair. I feel that our bodies desire each other, connect in an inexplicable way. He breaks the kiss abruptly, and stares at me.

– Are you sure you want to continue?

– Why are you asking me?

– ‘ Cause you know where we’re going, and…

– I want to keep going, that’s what I should have done that night you called me. This is what I wanted, but I didn’t feel ready. I answer, and caress his face. – I want you, Raul!

Our exchange of glances is intense, the desire that consumes us at this moment is obvious. He walks away from me, and goes to the door, and locks it with a key. It’s the safest thing to do. He turns to me, looks at me once more, bites his bottom lip, and then his gaze drops to my breasts, and the brief memory of him nibbling on them makes me so hot. His hands wrap around my waist, and his mouth starts a trail of kisses from my neck to my lap, and his husky voice whispers in my ear.

– Take off that dress, baby!

I push him onto the bed, and he sits up. I turn onto my back, push my hair back so that it pulls the zipper down my neck. He does, and I turn, slide the dress down my body to the floor, reach down and pick up the garment, toss it in the direction of the armchair on the other side of the room. Raúl’s gaze travels all over my body, and he makes me feel like the most beautiful and desirable woman in the entire world. In my thoughts, I appreciate the tips from my friends for choosing a red lace lingerie that highlights some of my attributes, and Raúl glimpses my body with a mischievous smile. I feel sure of what I want, and I take a few steps towards him who immediately puts his hands on my waist, I sit on his lap and place my hands on his chest, he looks at me intensely and says something.

– You and beautiful! he says, and I look at him smiling.

– Kiss me, defender!

That’s the access code for your mouth to touch mine hotly as your hands roam my body, I arch my spine and my breasts cling to your chest. Our kiss is fiery, he moves his full mouth down my neck, and a moan subtly leaves my throat. His mouth moves closer to my lap, my breasts are extremely tight as I feel his approach, and the simple touch of his lips. As he passionately kisses the lap of my breasts, I feel his hands reach for my bra and undo the clasp. He breaks the kiss, his lascivious look leaves me in complete ardor, he takes his hands to the strap of my bra and lowers each one of them in a sensual, measured speed, I get a little impatient waiting for his lips, I want to feel him sucking mine nipples, and to my delight it doesn’t take long, Raúl sucks one of them gently, and the other holds, a caress that makes me crazy with pleasure, I don’t have the strength to speak, the only sound that comes out of my mouth is a desperate moan, I am delivered.