Love You Can’t Say

He walked fast and soon arrived at the yard. Meals were already served. Now another three seats had been placed around the table. The man and his child I met in the yard just now and his wife will enjoy foods with us.

The man smiled when seeing me and said to his wife, “Honey, bring the cuttlefish and red dates soup in the kitchen over for Mrs. George. It’s good for the baby!”

I was surprised and hurriedly thanked him. Marcus hated the way he spoke and whispered, “No matter how nutritious the soup is, it cannot change the fact that the baby is already gone.”

Dennis glanced at me, making me get a bit unnerved. I was worried that he would sense something from the man’s words and interrupted them, saying, “You haven’t introduced this gentleman to me, Dennis!”

I said it in a gentle manner and behaved like a good wife should be.

Dennis startled and watched at me for a while then he started introducing.

“Eric is the owner of this residence. He was born in a family which had brought up doctors for generations. He was enthusiastic about herbs so he planted herbs in the yard. This elegant lady is his wife and the one-year-old boy is their son.”

I was worried after the simple greeting. I tried hard to cover up the truth that I didn’t have an abortion to deceive Dennis. What should I do if Eric accidentally told him the truth?

I couldn’t help looking at Mario and hoped he could find a way.

At this point, Mrs. Carter brought the cuttlefish soup to me and said with a smile, “Have a try, Mrs. George. When I was carrying my son, I liked the soup very much. Although the flavour is a bit weird, it contains herbs added by my husband that are good for the body. By the way, how old is your child?”

I was in a cold sweat because I was afraid of being caught up. I looked at her and replied, smiling, “I used to carry my baby for six weeks. However, me and Dennis haven’t done a full preparation for his coming. Hence, I had an abortion.”

Hearing this, Mrs. Carter was stupefied and looked at me in astonishment. Then she asked with great uncertainty, “You don’t seem to…”

“Mrs. Carter, that’s a normal thing after abortion. I really admire you for having a good knowledge of Chinese medicine and noticing the reason from her five senses.” Mario, who was drinking tea, finally spoke.

Suddenly, Eric squinted his eyes. Then he smiled and remained silence. On the other hand, Mrs. Carter was suspicious about my symptoms and chatted with me for a while.

Finally, the dinner was over. Eric whispered something beside his wife’s ear. Then Mrs. Carter glanced at me and left.

Eric turned to look at Dennis and said, “You seldom come to my place. My wife has prepared some medicines that are good for Clara’s body. Take it to tone her body. It’s easy for you to have another child when you’re ready!”

With his deep, dark eyes that contain no emotion, Dennis nodded and looked at me. I couldn’t tell what he meant.

Subconsciously, I felt that he brought me here on purpose to let Eric examine me. As for his real intent, I still couldn’t figure out. Hence, I didn’t say anything more until we left.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

It was already nightfall when we got on the car. Marcus didn’t like to be with me and urged Dennis to send me back.

I ignored Marcus. I knew they may have other things to deal with. Therefore, I decided to get off the car and told them I would call a taxi to go back.

Dennis simply reminded me to take care on my way home and drove away.

Carrying loads of upsetting things in my mind, I couldn’t fall asleep after arriving at home. At first, I wanted to ask Mario about what happened today. However, considering he was with Dennis, I decided to go to the Time Bar to have some fun.

It was already late at night. There were lots of people coming one after another.

Surprised, Diana asked in an annoying manner when seeing me come, “Why don’t you have a rest at home? Why do you come here?”

“I am here to have fun!” I gave her a simple answer. Regardless of her question, I found a place to sit down.

Diana rubbed her forehead, reminding me angrily, “You just had an abortion a few days ago. Please treat yourself well and have a rest at home.”

I knew she was worried about my body and replied, “Can you give me a cup of orange juice? Let’s have a talk!”

“I don’t want to have fun!” Then she directly went to the bar.

Still thinking about what happened in the yard today, I supported my chin to see people passing by. Did Dennis start suspecting that I was still keeping the baby?

“What are you doing? Didn’t you just said you felt bored? Come on. I will show you somewhere.” Diana petted my shoulder and led me outside.

Getting out of the bar, I asked with confusion, “Where are we going?”

“You will know when you arrive!”

The entire street was full of bars. I thought she was going to take me to go shopping and remarked speechlessly, “Why don’t you keep watch of the bar but hang out with me? Don’t you feel bored?”

She pointed at a sumptuous nightclub not far away and answered, “What are you talking about? You will get tedious when I am guarding the bar. I will show you an interesting place!”

I seldom went to have fun except in Diana’s bar. Now I was taken to this gorgeous nightclub and almost deafened by the piercing noise as soon as I got in.

Diana knew this place well and found a good place in the second floor. Then she called the manager, commanding, “Find us some men!”

The manager hurriedly nodded when seeing her behaviour and replied, “Okay, I will bring some for you to pick.”

I looked at Diana. The corner of my eyes was a bit tremble when I was asking, “Why did you call men to be with us?”

Diana replied in an indifferent way when she was putting a glass of juice in front of me, “They are here to serve us. I will show you other types of men. Any of them is gentler than Dennis. You don’t have to spend every day thinking about him. You should have your own temperament.”

Before I could remark, the manager already brought a dozen of male models here. I was astonished at once when seeing them.

“Pick one. There are many types. Don’t you like macho? Look at that man in suit. He is much better than Dennis!” When Dianna was talking, she pointed at a model who looked like the boy next door. That was her type.

The man was familiar with the procedures. He went by Diana’s side, poured a glass of wine carefully and pulled her hands in his. Dianna didn’t resist and leaned against him.

I was really astonished by her behaviour. It seemed that she was a regular customer to this nightclub.

No wonder she refused to find a boyfriend…

“What are you looking at? Pick one!” Dianna urged.

I didn’t know how to respond her but replied with an awkward smile, “I… I don’t need to!”

She rolled back her eyes at me and directly pointed at the man in suit, saying, “Stay by her side.”

The other models left when we finished picking. The model in suit sat beside me, making me extremely embarrassed. Dianna, however, was going to take her man to do thrill things.

There were only me and the model left in the room. I remarked embarrassedly, “Well, I am not…”

“You don’t have to explain, miss. I know it! It’s normal if you’re here for the first time. You will get used to it!”

I…

I didn’t know how to respond.