Love You Can’t Say

“The one who hurt me the most is no one else but you!”

Benjamin heard the words, a momentary flash of bewilderment in his eyes, but then far away and returned to harsh, “Do not reason with me Clara, in my world, you are the most unreasonable which one, I have enough tolerance for you, why do you have to be so insensitive?”

“Then don’t put up with it!” As I struggled to touch Benjamin’s hand, I suddenly remembered something, so I removed the ring I was wearing from my hand and threw it out in front of him, “This, I don’t want it, not even with you! I don’t need a sick control freak like you!”

“Nailed it-”

The ring fell to the ground with a few crisp thumps before falling untouched by the window.

Benjamin’s hands parted from the moment I threw away the ring, his eyes followed is the direction of the ring thrown out, until the ring hit the ground, the whole person almost like being frozen, staring blankly at the ring on the ground motionless.

The silence is like an invisible net constantly searching and frightening.

In such an uncertain scene, I couldn’t be sure that Benjamin’s tolerance had reached its end, and almost as if I had given up on myself, I volunteered to die, “Do it, give me a break.”

Benjamin stared fixedly at the ring for a long time, suddenly lifted his foot and walked over, picked up the ring in his hand, and then left.

Until his figure disappeared in the doorway, I had a surreal feeling.

That ring was kind of his only request to me, and it was just discarded, and Benjamin didn’t react at all.

Perhaps the commitment contract would not have worked for such a person.

I couldn’t think about it, Benjamin didn’t know what to do with Stannis, maybe it was bad enough now, and there was nothing I could do.

And Dennis, Benjamin has sensed that he is a fake surrender, in that nest full of wolves and tigers, and how many open and hidden calculations to face.

The whole day was spent in fidgeting, and near dinner, there was the sound of parking outside.

The Georges family can’t get a fly in the ointment right now, so you don’t have to guess it’s Benjamin.

Soon, Benjamin walked in.

He was ready to go straight upstairs, saw me in the living room before turning back, put a bag of things in his hand to the coffee table in front of me, and then sat down.

I swept my head down, couldn’t see what it was, and asked out loud, “Doing what?”

“Cell phone, bank card, car keys.” Benjamin said indifferently.

“And then what?” Give me these things for what?

“The watchmen outside have retreated to the far side, and from today you can go anywhere you want.” Benjamin said.

At that, I narrowed my eyes with suspicion, he was so kind?

“No need to feel strange, I just think that maybe we can get along in a different way, since you can’t feel the way I treat you, I’ll change it, according to you, I love you, and you are free.” Benjamin’s eyes were as calm as they could be, with no emotion visible.

I tentatively took one of the car keys in my hand and looked at it, “So no one will follow me like a fly when I go out anymore, right?”

“No, follow from a distance, and keep you safe, but won’t interfere with your decisions.” Benjamin said.

I nodded, that was a reasonable statement, and asked, inching forward, “Do I only have the freedom to travel, or can I do anything?”

Benjamin leaned back against the back of the couch behind him with both hands, “Whatever you want to do, as long as you like.”

That answer has always flattered me, and today he was too nice to talk like that.

But Benjamin’s mood changes rapidly and can change at any time, so I had to take advantage of it before he changed his mind.

“Good.” I put away my keys graciously and went to get my phone and bank card from the table while making a more reckless request, “Then go pick up Jamie for me, I miss him, just Jamie, you two are better acquainted.”

He said he took his things and headed upstairs, and then turned back to the stairs and added, “Go now, I want to have dinner with Jamie.”

“Yes.” Benjamin was full of promise, and before I could get to the second floor, people were already out.

About half an hour later, Benjamin’s cell phone rang, it was Leo calling to confirm whether to let him take Jamie, and only after I affirmed, hung up again.

An hour later, I finally met Jamie.

After dinner, citing the excuse of parent-child time, I took Jamie back to the room and turned Benjamin away.

Just after closing the door, all the gentleness and calmness in front of Benjamin passed away from his face in an instant.

After looking down at Jamie and the miniature computer in his hand, I took him into the bathroom and turned on the shower and faucet before squatting down again and asking in a serious manner, “Baby, tell mommy, how is your computer learning, can you detect if there is a listening device around here?”

“Does Mom mean someone is eavesdropping on our whispers?” Jamie looked confused.

Too late to explain so much to the child, I can only say yes, “That’s right, the secret belonging to mom and Jamie, can not let others hear it, Jamie there is no way to solve?”

Jamie nodded, then opened the computer in his hand and tapped on the keyboard while reassuring me, “Mommy, wait a minute.”

Jamie’s hands are fast, and the clickety-clack sound of the keyboard is like my heartbeat, going up and down all the time.

Finally, after a long wait, Jamie’s voice woke me up with joy, “It’s okay, Mommy! No one can hear us now!”

I breathed a sigh of relief, then took him back to the room, then handed the phone to him to handle as well, “Help mommy see if there are any problems with the phone again, can you?”

“Mmm!” Perhaps because she was in a good mood to see me, Jamie looked very impulsive.

After spending more than half an hour, Jamie suddenly stared at his phone with a depressed look on his face.

“What’s wrong baby, having trouble?” I walked over and gently patted him on the shoulder.

“No mommy, there doesn’t seem to be a problem in this phone.” Jamie said with a puzzled look on his face.

I froze for a moment, I didn’t expect Benjamin to actually be so open-minded, “No problem is good, mom is just worried about missing something, after being busy for so long, will Jamie feel tired?”

“No, I’m not tired.” Jamie shook his head and looked at me very seriously, as if he was clear that the situation was now a hundred thousand times more urgent, and looked at me very seriously and asked, “Mommy, is there anything else I need to do?”

“Good boy.” I gladly reached out to rub the top of his furry head, so long no see, he has grown a lot, rare to see a side, should have been good to talk with him, but only to ask him to help, can not help but feel some deficit.

But thinking of Dennis’s situation, he could only be ruthless and said with a smile, “Then please Jamie, put another locator software on mom’s phone, be a little more secretive.”

“Good.” Jamie didn’t say anything, nodded and went back to burying his head in the sand.This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.