Chapter 196
Angel
This morning, I woke up on my couch knowing I was wasted the previous night. My head hurt from the hangover I was having and I still found it a little difficult to coordinate my body.NôvelDrama.Org © content.
I had a strong head for alcohol but that night, I had drank so much out of frustration and it had everything to do with Thea.
After confronting her that morning, I returned to my room with a restless mind. I won’t deny it, when I caught her peeking at me through the corners of the wall, my heart leapt in excitement seeing her. Even though I had given the instruction for her not to be seen by me, I was still pleased to see her and I hated myself for it.
Natalia had been curious to what had taken my attention and she had tried to drag me up to my room but my entire being wanted to see Thea and eventually I succumbed to my desires.
Disregarding the persuasion of the whore I brought home, I followed my heart to find Thea where she was hiding.
In other to satiate the anger I felt for myself for wanting her, I decided to transfer the aggression to her.
I spoke to her harshly and it surprised me seeing the glint of hurt that appeared in her eyes from time to time.
I wasn’t sure why she was hurt, was it because she hated me? Or because somehow… Maybe she cared.
I was probably delusional, not once had she shown a care in the world about me ever since I found her, all I got was hateful glares and words. No apology except it had to do with that bastard Carl and if only she knew how much that angered me…. It made me want to kill him a second time.
Back to the reason why I had gotten wasted, seeing Thea look skinny and pale coupled with her throwing up that morning penetrated through my walls of worry. I was scared for her even though I hated to admit it. I wanted her to live so I could watch her misery and also because I was still in love with her and that last reason was what frustrated me the most.
I had not been myself ever since her betrayal, she still had me wrapped in her enchantment. Getting over her was like an impossible mission because she was deeply rooted in my heart that I was too weak to let go. Infact, the more I tried to forget her the harder I fell for her.
I missed her, her smile, her touch, the way she looked at me like I was the most important person in her life. The way she touched me, the way we made love. All the times we spent together, I missed them dearly. If only they were real….
I had lashed out my anger and frustration on Irene for Thea’s condition and even that wasn’t enough. I returned to the club that night and fucked Natalia so much that she was left crawling but that was my greatest mistake of the day because while I fucked Natalia, I felt nothing not until I allowed myself to imagine she was Thea and my dick became rock hard to destroy her pussy.
Even though it wasn’t the same as making love to Thea. I enjoyed it quite much thinking of Thea instead of seeing Natalia but the end result wasn’t what I had planned for.
My mind, body and heart were messed up because I craved Thea more than I ever did. I was dying to see her, to touch her, even if it was just a strand of her hair. I was sick every wise and she was the cure to it.
I couldn’t have her because she absolutely hated me so I drank away my sorrows only to wake up to a dilemma.
Images of the previous night came in confusing flashes to me.
I was outside and someone was with me. I wasn’t sure but I felt like I cried. Damn it! I’d be damned if anyone saw me doing that. More images came but as sprinkles and it frustrated me so much that I hauled a glass of wine I had taken that morning across the room.
“Just give me a fucking clear image!” I yelled at myself kicking the stool before me. I sat back on the couch digging my fingers into my hair in frustration just then like my brain had obeyed, I had a clear image of me kissing a woman and I was shocked beyond words.
I stood up hastily with wide eyes, I kissed someone, no fucking way! Why would I?
Except their was one reason, if she was Thea….
‘I don’t even care, just be Thea for tonight.’ that line of recall shattered every hope that I had kissed Thea. Then did it mean I had kissed some random lady thinking it was Thea? but then why did I feel like I enjoyed the kiss so damn much?
I was certain I said that line but why did my body and heart react with so much sensation as I recalled the feeling of kissing the strange lady?
It wasn’t Thea but I thought it was her so I enjoyed kissing a random lady.
Fuck Me! What was I to do right now. Who was that lady? What if she was a maid?
Fuck it! I slammed my fist to my couch and cracked my fingers as they were woven into each other.
Words will certainly spread if it was a maid, I knew how those bitches wanted a taste of me but I didn’t give a fuck about any of them they were my workers and that was it.
I went into my bathroom and took a quick shower after brushing my teeth then I slid into new pairs of clothes and headed downstairs in a haste.
I needed answers but what maid would admit I kissed her knowing I could react badly to her since I was asking?
“Angel…!” I stopped in my tracks hearing Caspian’s voice. He ran in front of me, curiosity clouding his gaze.
“You missed breakfast, what happened?”
“You sound like my wife Caspian, give me a break.” I said and moved away from him without answering. He gave me a shocked expression having not expected the comment but I didn’t give a fuck about it.
“I got news about Sparrow!”
He yelled and I almost stopped but my curiosity about the random lady was stronger than my curiosity about Sparrow.
Having Thea in the middle of all this was making my quest at retrieving my goods tiresome.
I thought about her more than I thought about killing Sparrow and getting my goods. The bastard had been absent for a while from the club and news had it that he was on vacation but I bet he knew how close we were to unmasking him and like the fool he was he had no perfect plan to defend himself. He was obviously buying time.
Sometimes I wondered if he’d return to his father and ask for help. That would sever our alliance and mean me going against Don Ricardo and Lola because what Sparrow did was unforgivable but thanks to him, I got to know of Thea’s true nature and for that he would pay dearly.
My stream of thoughts were interrupted as I walked by some maids who had their gaze keen on me. I stopped and they startled avoiding my gaze.
They greeted me out of fear seeing my reaction and I became suspicious. Why were they staring at me that way?
“Do you need us to do anything sir?” One of the maid asked and I knew I couldn’t straight up ask them what I wanted to know.
“Look at me, the both of you.” I ordered and they did so. I studied their expression but they looked confused.
‘It wasn’t one of them.’
I said within me and walked away but I found out minutes later that I was suspecting everyone one including my guards.
Fuck it! Angel…?
I yelled within, the thought of it being one of my guards and not a maid irked me even more.
Every corner I took and every face I met all looked suspicious.
I took a turn outside the building exhaling sharply as if that would expel my frustration then I caught sight of a maid who I felt had been watching me. I narrowed my eyes at her because she was peeking through from a corner. When she saw me watching, she hid her face.
Usually, maids would just walk by me after greeting with a slight bow but this one was hiding and the more reason my suspicion grew.
Was it her or was she just some shy maid I caught ogling at me?
I came before her and she moved away from the wall where she hid. She had her head low avoiding my gaze and I took a step further towards her.
“I’m sorry sir….” She said with a shaky voice. “I don’t usually do this.” She continued sounding scared.
“Look at me.” I ordered her and she looked up. I looked into her warm brown eyes and observed her face, in literal sense she was a pretty maid and maybe that propelled me to think of her as Thea and kiss her but right now her beauty meant nothing to me. No woman’s beauty did ever since Thea captured my heart. It was as if a veil of admiration was taken off my eyes each time I saw one. I just wasn’t enticed or impressed by it anymore.
This maid before me looked guilty but I wasn’t sure. Damn! This shit was driving me crazy.