For The Stars Have Sinned

“Let’s go!” I struggled in his grip but he was too strong. I glared at the face I once admired but now hate. “I regret idolizing you, Levi! I hate you! I hate you to death!”

He stopped for a moment and narrowed his eyes as he stared intently at my face. My face paled when he looked at me like that and I tried to look away. But he didn’t let me and held my chin to raise my face. I saw the strange smile on his lips again.

“Even if you hate me, it doesn’t change the fact that you are mine, Rishel,” he whispered to me.

My insides trembled when I heard that. Maybe it’s because of the way he looked at me like a hungry monster looking at his food. Just now he gave me that kind of look that made my cold sweat trickled my back.

I took a deep breath and bravely met his gaze. “You shot Papa. Didn’t your conscience hurt that you also did to Papa what you did to Ariel in that night? Or do you really have no conscience, Levi?”

His eyebrows met at what I said. “Ariel?” He turned his head to the left and laughed. “Did you witness that night, Rishel?” he asked.

My fists clenched. I don’t feel good about the tone of his voice but this is the only way I can think of to show him that even though I know the crime he committed in Boljoon I’m still willing to support him. I thought that if he found out that I was a witness that night, he would realize that my feelings for him were true and he would feel guilty, but I didn’t know that he didn’t have a conscience at all.

His smile widened on his lips and narrowed his eyes on me. “So you were there, huh?” The corners of his lips rose. “Tell me, what should I do with you?”

My teeth clenched. “Tell me why you shot Ariel and Papa! I want to know your reason, Levi!”

He was silent for a moment before speaking. “Ariel’s too popular for his good and your father is too good at making decisions.” He brought his mouth to my ear and whispered. “Should I shoot you too for knowing too much?” he asked.

My face lost color at his question and looked at Levi fearfully. He laughed when he noticed my paleness. “But it’s a waste of your beauty if you just lie in the coffin, Rishel.”

“J-Jerk!” I pushed him and moved away from him. “I thought you still had conscience but I was wrong. I regret being your fan, Levi!” He was about to approach but I raised my hand and shouted. “Don’t come near me! Don’t touch me! I hate you!” My vision was blurry because of the tears. “First, you shot Ariel. Now it’s Papa. You still don’t feel guilty and you bedded Nicole behind my back. Tell me, are you still a human? Do you still have a conscience, Levi?!”

“Conscience won’t pay my bills, Rishel.”

I clenched my fist and stood up. I was about to step towards the door but he quickly grabbed my wrist and pushed me against the wall. He put his own palms on both sides of my head to lock me in. I bit my lower lip and looked up at him.

I don’t know where my courage came from but I just realized that I opened my mouth and asked him a question. “Why? Are you going to shoot me like you did to them?”

Levi’s eyes narrowed and lowered his face to match mine. “Why are you testing my patience?” he asked with a smile. “Did you think I wouldn’t try?”

I breathed deeply. “No. I don’t believe you can kill me, Levi. Ariel and Dad are still alive!”

He raised his eyebrows at what he heard. “Ariel? Don’t joke. Ariel is dead and the one who’s singing on stage now is his twin, Seariel.”

“W-What?”

“I killed Ariel that night, Rishel, to give his position to Seariel. What? Surprised?”

I was just stunned while staring at him. So… He really murdered Ariel that night?

Suddenly my vision blurred. I just realized that my body was sliding against the wall. I also felt Levi holding me and calling my name. But at that time, I didn’t even hear a hint of concern in the tone of his voice, but an infinite coldness. So cold it penetrates my heart and soul.

When I woke up again, a white ceiling appeared before me. I tried to move my hand but realized my whole body was numb. I couldn’t even open my mouth. My two eyebrows met.

After a while, a woman wearing a doctor’s gown came. She was saying something but I couldn’t hear. She disappeared from my line of sight and later returned. I only stare at her until my ears registered her voice.

“Miss Rishel, if you can hear me move your finger.”

Even though I didn’t understand, I did what she said. He nodded. “Good. Don’t panic, Miss Rishel. Your senses will return later. You’ve been asleep for two days so it’s normal for your whole body to be numb.”

Two days? How?

The last thing I remembered was that I was still talking to Levi, but why was I unconscious for two days?

As the doctor said, I felt better after a few minutes. I also asked her why I was in the hospital. She just smiled. “Congratulations, Miss Rishel. You are pregnant,” she said.

“W-What?”

“You are 4 weeks pregnant, Miss.”

When the doctor saw the paleness of my face, the smile disappeared from her lips. She made an excuse to give me privacy. I bit my lower lip.

4 weeks. Four weeks after that night at the party. I still don’t even know which man did that to me. And now that night paid off. I clenched my fist but looked up when I realized something.

Levi? Does Levi know this? I looked around the white room but I didn’t see even his shadow. I didn’t even ask the doctor if it was Levi who brought me here.

But so what if he was the one who took me to the hospital? I sighed and felt loss. Rishel, haven’t you learned yet? Why are you still hoping for that man’s attention?

Yes. I hate Levi. I should just be angry because of what he did.

I was surprised when the door suddenly opened and a man who was very familiar to me entered. I swallowed. “L-Levi…”

He stood at the foot of the bed. My heart beat faster not because I still love him but… he was smiling. I know he is not happy with the news that I am pregnant.

“When are you going to abort that?” he suddenly asked.

“W-What?”

He bent down to bring his face closer to mine. “I will not let your career be ruined just because of your condition, Rishel.”

“No. I won’t do what you want!”

His eyes narrowed. “Don’t test my patience, Rishel. It’s enough that you’ve slept with someone but having that bastard of a child is out of the question.”

I gritted my teeth and glared at him. “Why? It’s you who slept with other girl and you’re going to blame me for why I’m in this situation? If it’s you, it’s fine to sleep with other girls, but when it comes to me, you should be the only one? Seriously, are you out of your mind? ”

He suddenly raised his hand and I thought he was going to hit me so I closed my eyes and braced myself for pain, but after a few minutes I didn’t feel anything. I opened my eyes and saw him looking directly into my eyes.

“You are mine. I don’t share, Rishel.”

I breathed deeply. “Well, I’m breaking up with you.”

He frowned. “You don’t have the right to say that.”

What he said made me feel even worse. “You’re insane! From now on, we won’t be together, Levi! You hear me? I’m going to break up with you whether you want it or not, so please, leave!” I pointed to the door.

I was stunned when he suddenly turned and walked out of the room. I just stupidly followed his bulk until he disappeared from my sight. I had a bad feeling about his silence.

So I waited a few minutes before getting up and stepping out of the room. I walked the length of the hallway until I ended up at the nurse’s station. The nurse was surprised to see me.

“Miss, do you have a doctor’s permit to go out?” he asked me when I asked where the exit was. He saw that I was still in a patient gown.

“Yes,” I said.

“Just a moment, Miss. I’ll just call your doctor —”

“No need!” I breathed deeply. “I just want to call someone.”

“Who are you going to call, Miss?”

My teeth gritted in annoyance. Why did he ask questions?

“My guardian.”

Even though he was not completely convinced, he still handed me the phone. I wasn’t sure if the call was recorded or not so I decided to call Lyndon. He will know that I need help because Kervy said before, I only call if I need something. The corner of my lips twitched.

“Hello, Lyndon?” I asked when someone answered on the other line.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

“Rishel? Where are you?”

I breathed a sigh of relief. I told him which hospital I was in and asked him to buy some fruits. “Come quick, please. I want to eat some fruit,” I said.

He was silent for a moment. I know he understood what I meant. I smiled and handed the phone back to the nurse who smiled back.

I quietly walked back to my room. The nurse wanted to take me but I refused. I waited in the room for a few hours when the door suddenly opened and the man I had been waiting for entered.

“Lyndon!”