Chapter 13 Complex Emotions
When I return to the mansion, Mia runs towards me with a look of concern. “Alice, where have you been? Aunt Rose-” Her voice trails off as she notices the marks on my chin and neck, her brows furrowing in confusion.
“What happened? Who did this to you?” She enquires, her words laced with worry.
“Mia, I went to meet my boyfriend, and his ex-girlfriend attacked me.” I lie to her.
I wish he was my boyfriend, but unfortunately, he is already in a relationship with her.
“Boyfriend? Ex-girlfriend? What are you talking about?” Mia looks puzzled, seeking clarification.
“I’ll explain everything another time. But first, tell me what you were saying about Aunt Rose.” I reply, eager to change the subject.
“Aunt Rose had to leave the mansion. The Wilson brothers transferred her to their father’s estate.”
Mia’s words made it clear to me that Alexander Sir had arranged it, because of my request to keep our relationship a secret from Aunt Rose.
How could he just send her away from me? I had already endured the pain of losing my mother, and Aunt Rose was my pillar of support.
But perhaps it’s for the best. Now I won’t have to deceive her anymore.
“Alice, she left a letter for you.” Mia extends her hand, holding out the letter.
I nod, accept the letter, and make my way to my room. After sitting on the edge of the bed, I open the envelope and read its contents.
‘Hey, Alice. I’m sorry, but I had to leave suddenly. I’m writing this letter to inform you, I won’t be there to protect you from the Wilson brothers anymore. You must protect yourself from them. Please, for my sake, stay away from them because I promised your mother I would always keep you safe. If you ever miss me, never hesitate to dial my number, my dear. Love, Your Aunt Rose.’
Tears stream down my cheeks as I finish reading Aunt Rose’s heartfelt letter. The weight of her words sinks deep into my heart, and I can’t help but question my choices.
Am I betraying her by submitting to Sir? Is this the correct path for me to take?
Unable to bear the burden alone, I reach for my phone and dial Alexander Sir’s number. After a few rings, he answers, his voice cool and composed.
“What is it, Alice?” He asks, his tone slightly impatient.
“Master, I… I can’t continue our Master and submissive relationship anymore.” I stammer, my voice choked with emotion.
A moment of silence passes before he responds, “What do you mean, you can’t do this? You belong to me, Alice.”
The firmness in his voice only adds to my inner turmoil, but I gather the strength to speak my truth.
“I know, Master, but Aunt Rose… She’s left the mansion, and I feel like I’m betraying her by being submissive to you. I can’t bear the thought of hurting her.”
There’s a brief pause on the other end of the line, and then Alexander Sir’s voice softens.
“Alice, listen to me. What matters most is your own happiness. If you find pleasure in submitting to me, it doesn’t matter what others think or want. You deserve to explore your desires and embrace your true self.”
Indeed, he was correct, but I cannot betray Aunt Rose.
“But… Aunt Rose… I don’t want to lose her. She’s been my anchor, my protector.” I confess, my voice laced with sorrow.
“Alice, I understand your concern, but sometimes, to grow and discover ourselves, we need to take risks and step outside our comfort zones.” His voice softens as he responds, his words filled with understanding. It’s hard to believe that he is the same Grouchy Monster.
He continues. “If exploring this brings you pleasure and fulfilment, it’s worth exploring, even if it means taking a different path from what others expect.”
His words linger in the air, sinking into my consciousness. Perhaps he’s right. Aunt Rose always wanted me to be true to myself and find happiness. If being submissive to Alexander Sir brings me joy, who am I to deny it?
With a deep breath, I gather my courage and respond, my voice more determined.
“Okay, Master. I will give it a try. But please understand that Aunt Rose means everything to me, and I need to find a way to reconcile these conflicting emotions.”
A sigh of relief escapes him, and I can almost picture the soft smile on his face.
“Good, Alice. Now, wipe away your tears and remember that you belong to me.”
Deep down, I yearn for him to belong to me as well, but I know he belongs to someone else, and it saddens me.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.
At that moment, an urge to inquire about his girlfriend rises within me, but I couldn’t muster the courage to do so.
“Yes, Master. Thank you for understanding.”
As we end the call, a sense of both excitement and trepidation fills me.
With newfound resolve, I wipe away my tears and stand up. It’s time to continue my journey as Alice, the submissive of Alexander Sir, and embrace the pleasure and fulfilment it brings me.
As I gaze at my reflection in the mirror, I see a mixture of strength and vulnerability, a woman ready to surrender to her desires.
And with that, I take a deep breath, open the door, and step out into a world where I’ll explore the depths of submission and dominance with my Master, Alexander Sir.
Yet, I couldn’t ignore the nagging feeling inside me to inquire further about the woman I saw in his office. If he was involved with someone else, I couldn’t fully give myself to him.
I decide to take a walk in the mansion’s garden, seeking solace and clarity.
As I step outside, the gentle breeze brushes against my face and the scent of blooming flowers fills the air. It’s a peaceful moment, providing me with the space I need to reflect on everything that has transpired.
Lost in my own thoughts, I wander through the garden, admiring the vibrant colours and delicate petals. The beauty of nature seems to echo the complexities of my own emotions.
I wonder how Aunt Rose would have reacted to this situation, and I silently hope that she would understand.
Deep down, I wish that the woman I encountered wasn’t Master’s girlfriend, as it would allow me to explore and embrace this new relationship.
Suddenly, a voice interrupts my reverie. “Alice?”
I turn around and find Mia standing a few feet away, a concerned look on her face. She walks towards me; her steps hesitant.
“Are you alright? I saw you on the phone, and you seemed upset.” She questions, her eyes filled with genuine worry.
I offer her a faint smile, appreciating her concern. “I’m fine, Mia. Just going through some personal matters.”
She nods, her expression softening. “I can tell something is bothering you. If you ever need someone to talk to or just a listening ear, know that I’m here for you.”
Her words touch my heart, and I realize that I’m not alone in this mansion. Mia has been a friend to me since the beginning, and her support means more than she could ever know.
“Thank you, Mia,” I say, my voice filled with gratitude. “Your friendship means a lot to me. I might take you up on that offer someday.”
She gives me a warm smile, her eyes reflecting understanding. “Take your time, Alice. We all have our own journeys to navigate, and sometimes, it’s not an easy road. But remember, you deserve happiness and fulfilment.”
Her words resonate deep within me, echoing the sentiment that Alexander Sir expressed earlier. It’s as if the universe is guiding me towards this path, urging me to embrace who I truly am.
With newfound courage, I take Mia’s hand in mine and give it a gentle squeeze. “Thank you, Mia. I’m lucky to have you as a friend.”
She squeezes back; her smile widening. “The feeling is mutual, Alice. Now, let’s take a moment to enjoy the surrounding beauty. Sometimes nature has a way of soothing our souls.”
We stroll through the garden, the weight of my decisions slowly lifting from my shoulders. I’m uncertain what the future holds, but I’m ready to take it on with support from my friend and a better understanding of my desires.
Strolling with Mia through the tranquil garden, I feel a sense of excitement building within me. The next chapter of my life awaits, and I’m determined to navigate it with courage, self-discovery, and a commitment to my happiness.