511 Letting Judy Go
(Winona)
"Judy really taught me everything I know about being self-reliant and a strong woman, but she taught me in all the wrong ways. By threatening my life and the life of my children. I mean she almost took the life of her son more than once." "Judy only knew extreme. But she also knew how to cover her tracks."
"She brought danger to my doorstep that I'd fought so long to keep away. I will not miss her in any way. I never loved her. But I do feel for Jayden, and for you."
He tilts his head, his sharp eyes locking onto mine. "Life must look very different for you now Judy's gone. Knowing she won't be there to interfere."
I take a moment to think about it. "Honestly? Yeah, I am. Judy had a way of... making you doubt yourself. Questioning every move you made. It's exhausting, constantly looking over your shoulder, waiting for her to strike."
"She was good at that," Gus says with a small, humorless chuckle. "Always did everything to the highest degree."
"Certainly cannot fault her work ethic and attention to detail."
"You'll move forward from Judy. You did once before when you were pregnant with Abby."
"I did, but Judy was still involved in how my life went. She knew everything about me. She had Phillip in her grips. All she wanted was to keep me away from Jayden, to keep him in her grip. Like she knew that him meeting Abby would change whatever hold she thought she had."
"It wasn't just Abby. It was you. His memory was always going to come back but with you there he didn't just have to believe what Judy told him. He questioned it because of his love for you."
I nod. "And yet, we're no closer to having what we've always wanted."
"You're closer than you think. But at least now you can both really explore life without being manipulated into every feeling."
"I do feel like I can finally make decisions for myself, for my family, without her meddling. I can keep my family together if Jayden and I choose to. We can live life on our own terms."
"You can," Gus agrees. "And you should. I'm so sorry you and Jayden lost your baby. No one should have to go through that. I hope I can be a part of you finding peace with your family in the future. That you won't let it hold you back."novelbin
His words settle over me like a warm blanket, and for the first time in a long time, I feel a flicker of genuine hope. This is all finally starting to hit home. Judy is gone but in her wake there's a lot of positives.
I reconnected with my mother and found out she was not the person I thought she was. She'd been forced into the life she had. I met Cass and although it's been rocky, we are still sisters.
I met Bobby and Sarah and with Anne's help we've been able to rehabilitate them into a normal loving family life.
We have Henry.
As much as Judy ruined and complicated our lives, so much good also came out of it.
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"Handling the loss of our son felt impossible at first. But I'm going to take counseling from experts and talk to those around me. I know women get through this every day and know I can find a way through it. But I'm not putting a timeline on it. No one should have to."
"I agree."
"Jayden said you might visit the farmhouse once I'm home."
His expression softens, just a fraction, "I'd like that," he says. "I want to see the new place, spend some time with the kids. I heard you did amazing things with the cottage in Brussels."
The place Gus built for his family that was never coming. "Gus, I'm so sorry you never got to have the family life there you'd obviously dreamed about."
"Hey, you did that for me. Better late than never. Thank you."
"I couldn't stay in the estate, that place is way too extra for my boisterous lot."
Gus chuckles. "You aren't wrong, but it serves its purpose. Now, as a training facility, it will go on for more centuries. It will give back to the ordinary people. I like that."
"I like that too. The cottage will
always be a home for us, even if not
full time. But Gus, if you're going to walk into our lives, you'd better make damn sure you're not walking out
again. Promise me."
He nods slowly, his gaze steady. "I promise. I won't be around on a daily basis, Winona. But I'll make sure I'm there for the important stuff."
"It's not just about the kids," I say.
"Jayden's been through enough. He's rebuilding himself, and he's doing it well. But if you come in and out of his life like a revolving door, it's going to mess with him tgd. He won't say it, but it will. He deserves more than that from you"
"I hear you," he says quietly. "I'll make it right. I promise."
I let out a breath, some of the tension in my chest easing. "Good. Because I can't handle more drama, Gus. Not after everything that's happened. It feels like we're all hanging by a thread right now."
"I'm not here to bring drama," he says firmly. "I'm here to make sure my family is safe and secure. That includes you."
"Speaking of safe..." I fix him with a pointed look. "If what you're going to do now-whatever it is-might attract danger to us all again, I need to know now."
He meets my gaze without flinching. "It won't," he says, his voice steady. "I've made sure of it."
I want to believe him, but there's a shadow in his eyes that makes me hesitate. "You'd better be certain, Gus. Because if anything puts my kids at risk, I won't forgive you."
"I wouldn't expect you to," he replies, standing. "But I'll keep my word, Winona. You have my word."
"Then I can't wait to see you for a family dinner on the weekend."
"Will Jayden want that?"
I shrug. "I'm not sure but Jayden needs it."