Dangerous Desires

Chapter 9

09 Kiss of Guilt

Tia.

I woke up in the morning and did not know how to face Luke. I knew he saw me; although he did not say a word about it, the look of amusement in his eyes proved he saw me. As long as he did not bring it up I could pretend he did not see anything. I had honestly thought he was with his girlfriend.

“We are going hunting,” Like said gently, and I nodded. I hadn’t shifted to wolf form in a while. I wanted to hunt.

“Maybe we should eat something, so we do not hunt like wild animals,” Luke said. I was surprised by his sentence because I felt the same way about hunting on an empty stomach. “I know you can’t stand Stacy, so I asked Bart to bring our breakfast to this wing. We will be eating in the breakfast lounge of this wing,” he said, and I was surprised at him. “How did you pull it off? I know eating together is compulsory in this family.” I asked, and he smiled. His looks were to die for. Luke was handsome.

“We are newlyweds; we need time alone together.” He said, and I figured that was reason enough, but the truth was we weren’t screwing. We ate breakfast in silence. There was an air of awkwardness between us, and I had had it.

“So, you saw me last night,” I said. Lying in bed and pleasuring myself wasn’t a crime. Amidst all this madness and heartache, I deserved to experience some pleasure. “I liked what I saw and heard,” he confessed, and I frowned at him. “Feel free to do as you like, Tia. You deserve some fun. If you ever need me, you link me. I will not touch you against your will,” He said, and I arched an eyebrow at him. “You mean at all. You will not touch me at all.” I corrected him, and he smiled and bowed his head.

“You looked beautiful last night,” that was all he said. His words gave me a tingling effect, but I knew he was just being nice.

We finally went hunting, and I shifted into my grey wolf form. As I ran through the forest, I loved how the breeze blew through my fur and the feel and scent of nature. I wasn’t out there to hunt but to commune with nature. Luke’s black wolf form was giant and domineering. We soon teamed up in the woods and caught a deer. Instead of killing it, we let it go. I was shocked; Caleb and Kirk always killed it and ate the prey in wolf form. Luke had done precisely what I always fought for them to do, let the animal go. I did not want to jump to conclusions yet, but I had not seen Luke drink since I came, and he had been nothing but gentle. Could it be possible that all we had heard were fabricated stories?

We raced back to the mansion and collected robes to wear from the butler at the door before entering. We took turns showering, and Luke left to do something. Maybe he went to see his

girlfriend, Elisabeth. I had to admire his loyalty and determination. Even though he was with me, he still made the time to be with her. He was devoted to her. Too bad no one will ever be devoted to me. Not wanting to sit idly by, I decided to go to the right wings library to read some books. The Library in Luke’s wing was empty. It wasn’t long before I entered the Library when Caleb came to me. I became uncomfortable immediately. I remembered what transpired, and I did not think it was wise to be alone with him in the Library. So I got up to leave, and he stopped me “Please, Tia let us talk,” Caleb begged me. “We have nothing to talk about,” I said to him, and he held me back and gently pinned me against the wall trapping me between his arms. “Please, Tia,” he said with teary eyes, ” Please,” He pleaded. “You have nothing to say to me.” I said I was a bit angry. “Let me explain,” he pleaded. I knew he would not let me go, so I stayed there and waited for him to speak “I love you, Tia. I care about you a lot. I only said no because I sensed my mother wanted to hurt you. What I told my father was true. I honestly thought we had time and that I could name you Luna when I take over the Alpha position. I had it all planned out, but my mother had to..” He said, and I shook my head. “Your mother did not force you to get Kimberly and all those other poor girls pregnant,” I said, disgusted that he had caused a lot of abortions.

“Who are you, Caleb? I feel I didn’t know you,” I said, and he bowed his head but kept me caged between his arms.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

“I am still me, Tia. Everything went out of control. These girls kept coming at me. I just wanted to have some fun, but I guess they planned to trap me with a baby. It..“I said, and I got short.

“No one asked you to fuck them without protection Caleb; that is on you,” I told him, and he shook his head.

“I used protection, I swear. There was no time I did not use protection. Those pregnancies were not mine. They just wanted to trap me, and my parents knew that was why they...” he said, but I shut him up.

“No, Caleb, It is all on you. You did not have to sleep with them at all. Why wasn’t your brother getting people pregnant?” I asked him, and he got angry. “Luke is a scumbag. He is only pretending. Everyone knows he is still with Elisabeth. He is a murderer, Tia and a drunk. He is irresponsible. Don‘t let him fool you,” He tried to say, and I smiled.

“I guess it runs in the family then,” I said, and Caleb looked defeated and bowed his head.

“Please, Tia,” He pleaded.

“What do you want me to do?” I asked him, and he crashed his lips against mine. I had wanted him to kiss me for so long, but there was no more room for that kind of behaviour. I pushed him off me and slapped him. “I am your brother‘s wife now; you do not get to do that, Caleb,” I said, and he bowed his head. “I am sorry, Tia. I am just desperate. He is only using you to get to me for taking the Alpha position from him. He doesn’t like you. He has a girlfriend. I bet he goes to her every time he leaves the house. Please, Tia, give me a chance. Let me prove myself. If I claim you, Luke will have no choice but to annul the marriage.” He said, and I was surprised at his words. “What about my reputation?” I asked him, and he was silent. “Help me out here, Tia. I cannot let you go. I cannot bear to see you with him. You were not supposed to be his mate. You were meant for me, Tia. Please. Please help me. I can’t let you go, ” he said and hugged me. He was sobbing seriously. “Please think about it.” he pleaded.

“I think it is best you spend your energy on Kimberly,” I said to him, and he shook his head.

“That baby can’t be mine because I used protection with her. All of them lie. They claim the condom broke and so on. She probably got pregnant by someone else and wants to pin it on me. She did everything to sleep with me that night, and now I know why,” he said with so much anger, and I could almost believe him, but whatever I thought did not matter anymore; I was Luke’s wife now. N It was plausible that the ladies would want to pin a baby on him. It was possible, but he put himself in that situation. “If you truly loved me, Caleb, you would have waited for me. When your father asked you if you wanted me, you would have damned the consequences and stood up for me,” I said; tears were welling up in my eyes, too because he was saying all the words I wanted him to say a little late. I was his brother’s now. Having an affair with him was out of the question even though I knew Luke was seeing his girlfriend, even though Luke had told me I could see anyone I liked. I still could not do it. I knew it meant I would be miserable all my life.

“Okay, okay,” He said, drying his tears. Let us resurrect our friendship. Before all this, we were best friends, and you are still my Gamma. Let us at least be friends,” he said. “I do not think that would be wise with the way things are and how you feel,” I said, and he paused.

“Let me kiss you, please,” He said. I could hear low growls. I had never seen Caleb lose his cool before. This was a new side of him, I sighed and stood still for him to kiss me. We kissed. His kiss was deep and sorrowful. I was giving him a goodbye kiss while he was pleading his case. Soon I broke it off and left him in the Library. I walked out of the Library aroused, briskly, I walked to the left-wing. Luke was in the room when I entered. There were some shopping bags on my bed. “Since you did not write your toiletries list, I had to seek your mother‘s help. I haven‘t received my salary yet, so I bought what I could, and I managed to buy some casual clothes I feel you might be comfortable in, He said and walked into my room, then sniffed the air.

King of Guili

IT

“Were you with Caleb?” he asked, and I felt guilty. “We bumped into each other in the Library. I went to use the Library on the right–wing because the one here has no books.” I said, and he nodded. “And you used that opportunity to kiss,” he said and gave me a half-smile with a tinge of hurt in his eyes.

“Your swollen lips gave it away,” he said and walked back to his side of the room before I could speak. He picked up his car keys and left the room. I knew he was angry, and i knew he was going to Elisabeth Barnes. I touched my lips, and I felt guilty. I should have explained to him it meant nothing, and I only kissed him goodbye so I could leave the Library. I knew it wouldn‘t sound right. I knew I should not feel bad. It was just a kiss, and it wasn’t like I was fucking Caleb. He was sleeping with someone. It was unfair for him to make me feel guilty about a kiss when he was going all the way.