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I was staring at my little angel while breastfeeding her. Her hands were balled and so small and soft. She looks like me when I was young. The resemblance was undeniable and I'm thankful she looks exactly like me. Actually, I'm scared and nervous because the baby may resemble Pierce and he would find out about her real father when that happened. So when she came out looking like me, I was relieved.
Pierce was sitting beside me on the bed, watching the baby. When I looked at him, he didn't seem to be blinking. He was just staring at her face with a soft expression.
The door swung open, Interrupting us. A nurse entered carrying a piece of paper and a ballpen.
"Good morning, ma'am and sir. I came to ask the name of your baby. You can write the name here."
Pierce accepted the piece of paper and the ballpen before he looked at me. "What would be her name?"
I turned my head to the window. A smile crept on my lips as I saw the droplets of white cotton-like balls outside. It's so beautiful, just like what I'm feeling right now.
"Snow.." I whispered and looked at my baby again. She's white as snow. Soft as snow and beautiful like the blue sky.
I saw a small smile on Pierce's lips as he wrote the name on the paper before he handed it back to the nurse. The latter was about to leave when my little angel started crying.
"What's wrong, baby?" I asked gently and looked at her.
The nurse went beside me and checked. "Your milk might not be coming out, ma'am. That's a common problem for new mommies"
I looked at her worriedly. "Do we need a breast pump or is there another way?"
She smiled and glanced at Pierce. "Mr. Anderson can do something, ma'am. He just has to suck the breast to make the milk come out."
An awkward silence reigned us. The nurse had already left but my cheeks were still burning. I don't know what to do. Having Pierce to suck my breast like that would be very awkward but our baby keeps on crying.
Pierce cleared his throat. I can see how red his neck and ears were. "1-I'll buy a breast pump."
"Can you just..." I trailed off and stared at him. He looked at me and swallowed hard.
He glanced at my chest before he looked me in the eyes again. "Can't I just....squeeze.
I sucked my breath and looked away. That's awkward too and I don't think that would work.
Pierce slowly went closer so I gently put baby Snow on the bed for a while. He stared at my face when I faced him and slowly lifted my hospital dress. He seemed hesitant but when he looked at baby Snow, still crying on the bed, he moved his face lower, leveling it to my chest.
bit my
bottom lip when he sucked it. I flinched at the contact as my heart raced. Gosh! Why am I feeling this? We're exes. We've done further than this when we're still together but why do I still feel awkward when it comes to intimacy. It's not like we're having sex. For God's sake, he's just helping me feed my baby..our baby.
"The other side too," I whispered after he's done on the left side.
He did it so fast and when I checked it, the milk was coming out again.
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I carried baby Snow in my arms again and Pierce wiped my breasts first before I breastfeed again
When I looked at Pierce, he's wiping his lips.
1-1 accidentally drank the milk," he said as if defending himself.
In spite of my flushed cheeks and racing heart, I found myself laughing. He laughed too while shaking his head. The beautiful smile on his lips is making my heart race again.
"I didn't know having a kid would be this challenging," he commented, still smirking.
I bit my bottom lip, hiding my smile as I looked at my beautiful little angel. She's now eating silently and peacefully. I couldn't help but admire her cute face. She got her dad's curl eyelashes actually. It looks so good on her small rounded face.
While we're watching baby Snow, Pierce's phone on the bedside table vibrates. I saw the name of the caller even when Pierce was quick to grab it. I was expecting him to excuse himself and leave but he didn't. Instead, he turned his phone off and sat on the bed again, watching baby Snow. "Why didn't you answer her call?" I asked curiously.
I know my limit. He's committed so someone else I don't have the right to keep him here. If I were in Lexi's position, I would be scared and angry because of what he's doing. He's ignoring her.
He shook his head and smiled bitterly. "We're just gonna fight again."
That's because you're ignoring her. How long has it been since she saw you? Pierce, you have a family too. You can't stay with me like this."
He looked away, guilt visible in his eyes.
"1-I don't wanna leave you here."
He has no valid reason for staying here. If he's just here because of me, I don't see it as a valid reason. He's committed to someone else. Although we don't have any relationship, I don't wanna look like a mistress here.
I held his hand which made him look at me.
"She's your fiance, Pierce. Don't do to her what you did to me."
His lips parted as he stared into my eyes intensely. I know I said too harshly but he needs to wake up. He needs to realize that he's repeating the same mistake he did before and even if I hate Lexi, I don't wanna see another woman experiencing the same thing I experienced before.
Pierce needs to completely let me go. I admit, I want him to stay by my side. I admit, I once wished to have him with me like this and never go back to his fiance but that would be selfish. However, hiding the fact about our baby is also selfish. However, what if I tell him about the real father of my baby? What will happen? Everything will be in chaos again. Besides, I don't wanna involve him with my problem with Klay. I will deal with