Being Mrs Spence

He drove and stopped in front of her gate, none said anything as he bent towards her to kiss her on the lip.

She turned her face away from him, he tried again but she dodged the kiss.

He relaxed back on his seat, breathed loudly. He placed his two hands on the steering and remained quiet.

They both did not say a word to each other as they remained seated.

He turned to her, looked at her for sometime before saying.

“You don’t love me… I get it. You claimed to have feeling for me the last time we were together yet you kept displaying an opposite attitude of love. I don’t know what to think again… I don’t.

She looked out from the window, it was dark everywhere.

The time was 8:34pm, it was a Sunday, tomorrow will be Monday. Her weekly wear was already sorted out. She only need to go inside, shower and sleep.

She has attended church service with Maxwell, today wasn’t the first time they will be attending service together.

It was after service they agreed to hang out in the evening.

After coming back, she relaxed a little before getting dressed again for evening outing with Maxwell.

He came and picked her up and when it was 7:30 she asked him to take her home.

She can tell that he isn’t happy during the ride back home.

He has been displaying cold attitude towards her. She wish he can understand her and stop making her feel guilty over her decision.

Florence flashed back to the night at his place. Everything was going on fine, the romance was as she wanted. Not rough or crazy style like Cole, it was just perfect but she suddenly started having ill feeling as she thought of Coleman.

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She was enjoying Maxwell kiss and touch, he was about entering the main romantic phase when she suddenly pushed him off to the bed.

Maxwell was shocked as he stared at her.

“Did I do anything wrong… I thought you were enjoying it? What is the problem again…?

“, I’m sorry Max, I can’t… I just can’t.

She apologized.

He made attempt to touch her again, she slapped off his hand, stood up from the bed, picked up her nighty jacket from the ground and wore.

“… please leave, I’m sorry Max but if you love me enough you will leave me alone at this minute like I wish to be.

Maxwell tries to argue but went quiet. He dressed up properly before walking away.

Florence fell back to the bed and weep for unknown reason.

The next morning, Bianca brought two fine dress for her from Maxwell.

She got dressed and put back her wedding ring.

When Maxwell saw her in the money, his eyes was devoid of sleep.

He looked down at her ring finger and frowned.

Florence tries to apologise again for last night but he did not want to talk about it.

He served her breakfast, before walking her to her car.

He didn’t speak much or looked at Florence eyes like he used to m

he avoided getting too close with her until she left.

“Flox… Flox…. You’re thinking again. Why are you making this whole thing more difficult than it is already. If you don’t want me or have feeling for me kindly say so, let’s stop deceiving ourselves and face reality.

She turned to him, his eyes were sad.

“I’m sorry Max, there are things I can’t change or undo and that’s who I am. I want to stand for truth, for royalty and most importantly for godliness. And the truth is that I have feeling for you.. I truly cares about you Max. But I want to take things easy…

“You have feeling for me yet I can’t touch or kiss you like I so much desired to do. What are you talking about… I’m not asking you to change who you are, I only want you to stop holding back your feeling for me. I can’t do anything without thinking of you. I love you Flox, and is difficult to keep saying it with mouth when we have a serious connection in the past before you met Coleman.

He bent over, took her hands into his while looking into her eyes.

“…. I want to express the exact way I feel, kiss you all over, feel your warmth, touch you like I used to in the past before our break-up. I want to make love to you for real Flox… I so much desire you. Ever since we got very close, I have been trying to put my whole feeling in check but the closer we get the more the feeling grows with each passing minutes. I’m tired of holding back and pretending we are just friends. Flox, we have history together it makes it difficult to remain friends… I Love you so much, don’t you still get it? Give me a chance to make amend my past. I really want to be in your life and love you like you deserve. Please… Flox…

Florence pat his hand gently, she touched his face. Caressing every line down to his mouth.

Maxwell placed his hand over hers and brought it to his lips.

He kissed her hand slowly, looked at her eyes down to her lip.

He looked down at her finger which still holds her wedding ring.

He draw out his breath shakingly.

“… You are torturing me Flox… you are really torturing me. I don’t know how much I can take. Why do you still care so much about a man that doesn’t care about you. He is living with a woman for over a year… who was pregnant for him. Same man served you a divorce letter and warned you off to stay far away from him and his mistress or he kills you. He threaten you with death and many other ill thinking stuffs. Why is he still holding you back from your happiness… please make me understand.

Florence gasped out sadly.

“He is still my husband Max. I’m sorry it hurts this way but that’s the truth. Is untill the divorce process is over I can’t be wholly yours. Please give me time, the whole thing is just around the corner. By next month end I will be a free woman to do as I wish. I won’t because of Coleman’s nonchalant behavior our disrespect belittle myself. I will keep my honor till the very end. I can’t live as I like or be foolish like Coleman. We can’t both be mad at the same time. I want you too Max, I desire to be with you. Lay on your chest and listen to your heart beat as it was before meeting Coleman. I want to bury myself in your brood chest and most importantly knell and pray side by side with you. I want many things too Max but I have to wait. I’m not gonna put my selfish desire ahead of me… I will wait no matter how long it takes. Let us allow God to take the wheel… so that we don’t miss out on the main road.

Maxwell nodded.

Florence smile, she bent over and kissed his cheek before saying goodnight.

As she picked up her bag to step out of the car, Maxwell caught her hand.

“I don’t feel like driving home now Flox, can I come inside and stay a little longer with you.

“No Max, please go home… watch some movies, dive into the pool and swim out the stress, check out Paloma, your talking parrot and have a nice time with the colorful bird or Diego, the fluffy white rabbit with it’s mate Anni. your domestic staff too can entertain you if you want. There is a whole lot of things to be done around your place… go home Max.

Maxwell laughed out a little.

“Diego is a lazy rabbit, it keep getting fat and fur all over. Anni is smarter, I think she is pregnant… she is begining to act lazy all of a sudden. Paloma talks too much I will skip. Maybe swimming will do lots of good. Thanks for the suggestion. When can I see you again Flox. I can’t wait for this divorce thing to be over so that I can have you all to myself. Should I prepare something for you within the week… what will you love me to bring for you…

“Nothing for now…. or I will let you know within the week. Just go home Max, I need to get in and rest. Goodnight…

She opened the door and stepped down.

.”I love you Flox…

She did not reply, she only smiled and waved at him.

Max waved back as he watched her go inside before driving away.