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ANNABELLA’S POV
‘ Don’t let her leave!’ the distant growl made me jot out of my sleep as my eyes stared around the dark room, my heart hammering in my chest, feeling sweat all over my face.
It took me a minute to realize it was just a nightmare. A bad nightmare or should I say a reminder of what happened that night perhaps my father’s anger?
I moved my hair from my face with a tired look in my eyes, I hadn’t had a good sleep in a while and it was all because of that night.
I shut my eyes for a few seconds before pushing it open and staring up at the ceiling above me.
It has been more than a week since the incident with my mother happened but it has been from one nightmare to another. I didn’t seem to forget it and it was wearing me off.
I tagged my long-colored hair from my face and turned to sit up on the bed. I wish I never killed my mother, the thought of it makes me feel awful about myself. It has been from one nightmare to another since that day and I have a feeling my father, alpha Christopher wasn’t going to let it go!
I guess the fear of my father catching up with me was eating me up and I knew he wouldn’t let things end like this. ‘ Roman will protect us.’ Eve said and I had no choice but to agree with her.Content rights by NôvelDr//ama.Org.
Yeah, Roman.
She knew how to light a person’s mood but my father wouldn’t just give up, I knew it.
And yes, Roman would light up the world for us but what if he gets hurt because of us
I had no idea what my father said to him the day he came over but Roman was really upset when he returned. He didn’t say anything other than hugging me and assuring me he was going to protect me no matter what.
And I believed him, he was the one person I trusted even without the mate bond, I still trusted him.
‘ Have you forgotten he is the strongest alpha in the continent?’ Eve said and I didn’t doubt her besides, I never forgot that. Roman was indeed strong and the rumor of him killing his family made him fearful. But my father could go to any length to have him in his palm which I knew wouldn’t be easy nor would it be impossible.
‘ Can you stop worrying?’ Eve spoke in my head, her pleading tone warming my heart. She must be tired of facing the same thing for the past few days.
‘ I wish you would forget everything that happened.’ her strong voice made me a bit confused but I wished it was easy. ‘ Can you leave me alone.’ I told her. I wasn’t blaming her for anything but wanted to have time for myself. None of this was easy for me, how could I live and forget that I killed my mother?
Wait, how could she still sound this strong? I knew she was a wolf but my mother was bound to be her mother too!
‘ I’m sorry, it was all my fault.’ Eve apologized and I let out a heavy sigh.’ I just ask you to leave me alone.’ everything was lingering at the forefront of my head like a movie and I was sure I wouldn’t be able to forget it easily.
Eve was my wolf and I believed she was being protective like every wolf.
I get why she did that, she killed my mother to get us out of the shadow pack and also prevent whatever plan my father had for us.
I should be grateful, I should be happy that I was finally out of there but I couldn’t get it out of my head.
My mother’s last stares and the blood!
I jumped down from the bed and walked to the bathroom with my hand covering my mouth.
Oh no, I still couldn’t believe I killed her.
I didn’t know how I would be able to feel happy with myself, killing my mother wasn’t the peace I wished for. She might not have been a great mom but she was my mother and I killed her in cold blood.
I felt hot tears stuck in my eyes as I stared at myself in the huge mirror.
I looked different and couldn’t recognize myself compared to a few months ago. I have changed so much that the guilt in my heart was so little.
Something in my eyes terrifies me. I wasn’t the Annabella that existed months ago. What was happening to me? What was I turning into?
I ran my hands in my hair as I gazed at myself in the mirror with tired eyes, barely recognizing myself.
Almost everything about me seemed different, my hair had changed so much and my eyes weren’t exactly like before. Everything about me seemed different, was it because of my wolf? Was Eve responsible for all these changes?
I shut my eyes to arrange my thoughts but all I could see and hear was my mother’s bleeding body and my father’s angry growl.
‘ I’m sorry, Bella.’ Eve suddenly apologized and I shook my head. My eyes were dull from the sleepless nights I was experiencing and my face pale from my confused thoughts.
‘ I didn’t mean to hurt you like this.’ my tears suddenly fell from my eyes as I recalled everything that happened that day. It wasn’t her fault.
Roman was right, they forever us to do it. It wouldn’t have been like this if my father hadn’t insisted I mate with Summer I’m order to produce an heir for the pack.
Maybe my mother would still be alive if she hadn’t supported my father in his silly game.
They made us do it, it wasn’t Eve’s fault. I tried to convince myself.
I understood she wanted to save us but I couldn’t help feeling like it was her fault even though I didn’t blame her for what happened.
A part of me was still angry with her for putting me in such a situation even though I knew her intention which was to save us.
My father hated me more now, he wanted to kill me more than anything.
‘ I didn’t mean to cost you this much. It’s all my fault, maybe things would have been different if I had been patient enough.’ I shook my head as I closed my eyes to take a breath. Perhaps my actions were hurting Eve as well.
My heart began to feel lighter as images of my past life flashed in my head. They turned me into a murderer, it was my father’s fault my mother died. If he had loved me like he didn’t with Olivia, I wouldn’t end up this protective.
‘ It’s not your fault, Eve.’ I opened the water to rinse my face. ‘ You only did what was good for us ‘ I told her and I could feel her silent.
I never forgot that she only did what she had to. It was a shame my mother couldn’t take my side even once.
My mind wandered back to the past where she was always going as my father wanted. Always takes sides with him even if it hurts her, her eyes always say one thing and her actions tell another.
I couldn’t help but think she was my father’s pupper.
She allowed my father to insert so much fear in her heart.
‘ You don’t have to apologize, I know it’s not what you wanted. I should apologize for getting angry at you, I shouldn’t have screamed at you.’ I whispered to Eve.
I watched my wet face in the mirror before pulling a tissue at the side to clean it. ‘ You don’t know how much it means to me to see you better.’ Even said after a few minutes of silence and I smiled.
Maybe I have been overreacting and maybe she deserved to die after all, it would have been me suffering in the shadow pack.
Though I wasn’t happy about killing my mother r but I was glad I was no longer the weak Annabella who was bullied July everyone in the shadow pack. No more the weak girl that was betrayed by her mate and called mateless.
The moon goddess shouldn’t be questioned hence I was going to embrace my fate.
Roman, Eve, and every other thing that makes me!
” Dear, alpha Roman is waiting for you downstairs.” Madeline’s voice cut through the silent space.” Okay.” I replied in a casual tone, I noticed a few seconds of silence before picking up her retreating footsteps.
I pushed my hair back from my face and created a loose bun behind my head before heading out of the room.
I frowned when I couldn’t find Roman in the room. His scent was still strong.
The sudden knock on the forced gaze to the side. ” I will get it,” Madeline said as she dropped out of the kitchen.
” Dear, she wants to see you.” I raised a brow as Madeline opened the door wide for whoever it was, and the familiar scent made me narrow my eyes. ” Kelly?”
How did she find me? I never told her my pack!